Anxiety. ...enough

[Bichette]

Hi

Since a few years I have been very struggling with anxiety. Went twice to hospital and actually that helpslittle bit but it was a traumatic experience for my boys and myself. I am feeling lost again since 2 weeks. Went to see a new GP and got antidepressant and anxiety medecine. It's been only 9 days I am on but my big fears is I am feeling lost. I don't have any family here, I am from France, I have my boys 50/50 with my ex husband. I didn't go to work the last 2 weeks, I spent my day home and have no motivation to do anything. I am feeling very lonely. I try my best to be strong, my boys need me and I desire to have a normal life with happiness. Tomorrow I have an appointment with a psychologist, I am feeling desperate and can't stop to cry because I feel like there are no issues.

[Starwolf]

Hi Little Doe (yes, I was born and bred in France too), welcome to BB.

Anxiety is not easy to cope with. Struggling with it while being a parent adds another negative dimension to it. Well done for sharing this responsibility with your ex. Having someone to fall back on when things get too difficult is a valuable resource.

Congratulations also on being proactive and seeing a new GP. Medication always takes time to kick in. Effects should soon become more tangible. I hope your therapist appointment will go well and herald a new beginning.

It is sad that you don't have direct communication and support with your family. Have you made any friends here at all ? Social isolation often comes with the mental issues territory and lack of motivation is one of depression by-products. The reality is that to connect with others, we must put ourselves out there. Is there any hobby or activity you would be tempted to get into in your spare time ? This usually provides an opportunity to meet people who share a common inclination. Besides, we all need to get out of our head sometimes...particularly when it is not a good space to linger in.

Reaching out and posting in these forums was a brave decision...and also a wise one. They're a safe network of caring people who understand what you are up against and are ready to support you when needed. It is not the same as face to face communication but anonymity makes it easier to let steam off and share thoughts and feelings at a deeper level than could be done in the outside world. Besides, we're all part of the outer world too. The forums are our meeting spot.

Good to have you on board.

[BballJ]

Hi Bichette,

Bonjour 🙂 I'm sorry that is the extent of my French hehe.

Firstly, welcome to the forums, I am a long time anxiety sufferer, so I know all too well your symptoms and experiances, I cannot imagine how hard it must be, being away from home dealing with this. The medication defintely needs time to kick in and i'm sure you will notice the effects soon, they certainly helped me.

The best part about your situation is you have done the best first step and that is reaching out for help and also have one of the biggest motivations and that is for your kids, they want a happy and healthy mum so you are doing the all the rights things and that is a positive.

Since this was posted i am assuming you went to the Psychologist, how did that go, did it help?

Just a side note, Beyond Blue have a social section (The BB Cafe) which is great just to take time away from what you're dealing with and everyone in there is super nice and really friendly so maybe try that sometime as that can take your mind off things and join in with the people in there.

Please, feel free to post back as many times as you wish

My best for you.

Jay

[Bichette]

Hi Jay

I'm very sorry but I totally forgot about beyondblue. This is my friend told me tonight to check and I found my story! ! I can't remember it . Thank you for your message. You are talking about the bb cafe ?where I can get when is happening

Many Thanks Jay , that's very nice

[Bichette]

So sorry I forgot I went to the psychologist only once , so first time this is more about you, I think his is good. I am going back this Friday. And as well my GP sent me to emergency to meet a psychiatrist and he changed my medecine. Now it's been 7 days but today and yesterday it was awful day ......... I don't know what is wrong with me