Over the past 3 months I have been struggling with my mental health, resulting in constant low performance at work. I fear that I will soon be asked to resign or fired due to this.
Anxiety/depression symptoms are not new to me, I have been taking mild medication for this for a few years (no regular counseling), and it is not usually a problem. However a few recent events/circumstances seemed to have triggered a spiral that I am having trouble coping with.
I have been as open as possible with my manager as to my circumstances and why this is affecting my work. As my own efforts to deal with this was not improving my performance - I reached out to receive counselling.
I feel so scared of losing my job. My managers say they are supportive, and acknowledge that I am making steps to get better. But lately they have been very short with me, and haven't responded to the mental health updates they request. I have been in this job for almost a year, and I do enjoy it, but I am questioning if I should continue. I have a very strong sense that my managers are frustrated with my performance, or that they don't believe me.
I don't know what to do.
