Anxiety, Depression and Heart Palipiations

[Bibendum]

Hi Guys,

I feel I owe it to you all to post about my problems as I have often cross referenced what I suffer on these forums.

I have serious forms of Anxiety (where i fear death at every turn), depression and heart palpitations. I am convinced I am going to drop dead any day now for any reason my brain can come up with. This in turn makes me very depressed and cause heart palpitations all day.

Anxiety: I have suffered since the 31/10/2004. I could not be left alone for over 12 months from fear of dying. I would have over 200 attacks a day. I thought my heart was going to stop, I would have a stroke, I had cancer etc... The list goes on and on.

Depression: I am so hard on myself. I hate the way I look, I hate my job and how people see me for it, I never go anywhere or do anything. My life is just stuck on groundhog day. This has lead to financial trouble. Family troubles and its just no way to live.

Heart Palpitations: I have around 100 of these a day. Skipped beats mostly. I also get painful squeezing ones. They are very scary. I went to the hospital in 2013 (emergency) and they said I was fine... I was meant to have follow up test but I was too scared. I guess that's the trap of the illness...

In the last 2 weeks the palpitations got really bad. I ended up in hospital again. ECG, chest X-Ray and bloods were taken. I was beside myself with fear. They all came back fine. I even have a resting pulse of 59bpm and blood pressure 127/76. Of course to me my heart has always beat too fast and I thought I had high blood pressure. I was told to have the 24hr monitor test and I went through with it. Scariest 24 hours of my life.

I just received the results today and everything has come back normal...

The purpose of writing this is to maybe help people who suffer things like I do. Hopefully it will give someone the strength to have the tests done or seek help to start getting better. It is possible. I know that now. I am committed to do this for myself and my loved ones.

To the many peoples posts I read over they years thank-you. It helped me.

The greatest journey starts with a single step.

[Peppermintbach]

Hi Bibendum,

Thank you so much for sharing some of your story 🙂

I found it very uplifting and inspiring, and your words brought a smile to my face. Thank you...

You have clearly been through a lot, and have now come out the other end so beautifully. Well done 🙂 I hope you feel really proud of yourself for overcoming so many struggles, and bravely sharing your story here.

It’s also wonderful to hear how reading others’ posts helped you feel perhaps less alone and supported in a way. I agree that there is a wonderful sense of community on the forums, and both reading alone or posting have benefits 🙂

Congratulations on the “all clear” results. That’s fantastic news, and I bet your story will help a lot of people and encourage them to seek help 🙂

caring thoughts,

Pepper

[MrsEM]

Hello Bibendum,

it was so good to read your post. I took have been suffering from anxiety for a while now and most recently the last 3 months from heart palpitations. They seem to come on when I am overly anxious or nervous and scare the sh*t out of me. I am so happy when I go a day without one. I have had every heart test and also been to hospital and everything comes back normal. It's crazy what anxiety can do to us physically.

Hang in there. It can only get better.

Ellen

[Spl spl]

Hey Bibendum,

Its wonderful to hear that you got some help and had those tests done. While my story is not the same as yours, I can totally relate to having chest pains, panicking about it, and then the results come back all clear. On one hand its a relief to know that nothing is seriously wrong and that it is because of anxiety- but its kind of frustrating at the same time. At least thats how it was for me.

I agree the moniter test part is definitely scary, for me the thing that made me freak out the most is when I got a heart ultrasound....seeing the inside of your heart as it beats is............. Anyway, I'm happy life is turning up for you and you got the help you needed, it's inspiring for a lot of people out there. Best of luck for the future, fantastic days are ahead of you!

[monkey_magic]

I have chest pain as I write this but no not going back for more tests. I've done that on many occasions & always came back clear. Its good to know its just anxiety but it can hurt...

[monkey_magic]

I have chest pain as I write this but no not going back for more tests. I've done that on many occasions & always came back clear. Its good to know its just anxiety but it can hurt...