Anxiety and ocd help

[Mumma7]

Hey guys! So I have ocd and anxiety/panic attacks. I struggle to leave the home without feeling like I can’t breath. I’m on new medication and it’s helping but I’m noticing something that I normally notice when I’m getting better, just wondering if anyone else has felt what I’m about to explain? So I used to control my breathing or have constant intrusive thoughts and constantly doing ocd behaviours, and now I’m starting to get better I notice ‘stillness’ so because I don’t control my breathing anymore or do these behaviours I feel when I sit down and am doing nothing I feel like nothings going on inside, like I feel like I need to start controlling my breathing or hearing my heartbeat to know everything’s still working. I find when I feel ‘still’ I almost feel empty inside and feel like I’m going to pass out or die. It’s so frustrating!!!! Does anyone else ever get this feeling?

[Croix]

Dear Mumma7~

I'm glad things are getting a bit better for you .

When one has suffered from an illness for a long time and it starts to lift it can be pretty weird. All actions one was forced to -or needed to -take can lose their urgency, even their meaning.

I know it is not the same thing but as I improved my anger did not appear -and that was unsettling -something missing. I'd been so used to trying to control it and look after my partner (who bore the brunt of it) that being reasonably calm was a strange sensation.

If you add to that the fact some meds can have pretty weird effects, and one can feel somewhat separated from oneself (if that makes any sense)

Do you think it worth talking over these sensations wiht your doctor, perhaps a small change in dosage is indicated?

Croix

[romantic_thi3f]

Hi Mumma7,

Thanks for your post!

Hm, I wonder if it could be the fact that this stillness is so unusual and rare? I have an anxiety disorder but not OCD and I know with my anxiety it can feel like I'm incredibly wired. Especially with the panic attacks too I know it's almost over-wiring - so when all of that stops ?! It can feel like night and day, and incredibly unsettling.

Do you think that's what might be happening with you too? That this feeling is just so empty because you are so used to being wired from the anxiety and OCD?