Two and a half years, that's how long i have been suffering severe depression for. It may not seem like a long time, but I'm only 15. Everyday i suffer severe anxiety/panic attacks which effect my schooling and friendships. About a year ago my parents split up and i was left behind with my suicidal mother and my younger brothers. I have attempted suicide several times in the last few years and been in hospital. Recently i was diagnosed with Boarderline personality disorder which actually tore me apart because it made me feel like I was a mental freak who everyone wanted to do research on because i had research doctors following me around to see my different mood changes. Its harder now, with school, my friendship groups and home because it feels like i don't belong anywhere, because I'm different. Everyday i don't want to be here, its a struggle and everyone always tells me that it will get better but it never seems like anyone wants to stay around to try help.
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