School problems

[Iheartgizmo]

Ok so hello, I’m a female in middle school and currently I am having trouble with school!  I barely go to school these days because, we’ll I’m going to be honest with you.I have like only 1 friend, and in that friendship I feel like I’m the only one putting in effort to keep us together.  She never really seems to have fun with me, but with my other classmates she’s always laughing and smiling. So in the morning when I go to school sometimes i see her with my classmates( or by herself) and I just can’t get out of the car.  It’s a bad habit of mine but I haven’t gone to school for a week and I’m too scared to go back.  I’m considering starting school of air because I love being at home with my mum (she’s a stay at home mum) and my dog! My brother is always telling me to stop being a b*tch and just go to school, but he doesn’t understand because he has like 20 friends at school and he’s super popular. My whole class practically hates me i don’t even know why because im a quiet kid and I just sit there.. I really want to do something about my situation but I don’t know what to do. My brothers always blabbering on and it makes my confidence go down even more. I don’t even think my dads aware of my mental problems, I know my mom is because I always talk to her about it, but whenever I do she always starts talking about her mental health. My brother also has some sort of disability my mum thinks he has ADHD so she usually takes his side because he can’t control it or something and he also has severe anger issues. He rlly needs to do something about it! Once he practically tore apart his whole room- it’s as scary. My mum and brother always argue and my brother always talks about how useless life is and how he is going to commit suicide when he goes financially unstable as an adult. I don’t think Thai negativity is very good in my life but I can’t control him. My mum is currently at japan because her Uncle passed away because he had stage 4 cancer of the pancreas. In a couple of days my brother is going to a different state to see a concert with his friend and my min will be back by then, I’m honestly to sad because I couldn’t go to neither of the places! I have to stay here in this place I absolutely HATE. Ah I wish I could move to japan, people are so respectable there and have good manners and care for other people (most ppl in Japan not everyone though) my min said when my brother graduates we might move there!!! Please give me advice on my school situation!!

[smallwolf]

hello and welcome.

It sounds like you are going through a really tough time right now. And if nobody likes you, I can understand you not wanting to go to school. Your brother does sounds unkind towards you as well.

With that said, I wonder if you have considered talking to your school counselor or a teacher you trust about what you're feeling. They can help come up with a plan to make school feel safer.

What sort of things do you like to do? Have you considered joining a club or sport at school to meet new people who share your interests.

Remember - you have value. There are kind people out there you will connect with. Sometimes it can take a while to find your tribe. Small steps forward every day will improve the situation over time.

[tranzcrybe]

School can be tough to navigate. Knowing where you fit in is often the hardest part and that's where the trusty friendship groups can provide certainty of where you stand. But these have rules and conditions of their own so it's not an easy ride.
What is the effort you speak of when being with your friend? Is a friendship contingent on 'fun and laughter' alone? Perhaps you fill a need in your friend that can't be found in other classmates; and I hope you can take comfort in just having your friend be there for you without feeling she (or you) needs to be 'doing' anything to enjoy each other's company.
I think your friend really needs you there for her also so I would encourage you to rejoin school at least for her sake.
As to your 'whole class' hating you, have you received a petition signed by all to that effect? If not, what grounds have you - and what states that things can't change, or that you are incapable of initiating such change from the choices you make tomorrow?
Courage is your weapon and self-esteem your armour.