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i hate myself
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i genuinely hate myself. there is not one thing i like about the way i look, what i can do or my personality. i do musical theatre, which a few years ago was something i thought would be great for confidence and since i loved singing, but it made me realise how bad i am. i cant stop comparing myself to my friends and just constantly feel worthless. when the topic of self love starts up i just want to cry because ive tried so hard to change but i cant love myself for who i am. musical theatre and singing was something i was once interested in but now hate doing but i cant quit because without it ill have no friends. plus, ive always had a difficult time making friends so ive already gone to a psychologist about it and moved schools within the past few months. i just dont know what to do but if i show any sign of doubting myself, people think im attention seeking when i cant help it. i practically now use it as sarcastic humour to hide my true feelings and how i just want to breakdown. why am i not good enough? why couldnt i have been anyone else? i just constantly feel useless, irrelevant and ugly
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I don't know if this is of any help to you, but many years ago when I struggled with self-worth, what "cured" me overtime (this was not overnight, this was LONG term) was learning to love myself by loving others. This was a practise that I had to intentionally, mindfully adopt and keep enforcing overtime.
We all judge people - if anyone truly, honestly never does, I would love to meet them and learn from them. Judging is a natural thing and it's how we, as a social species that wants to survive, assess the safety and fruitfulness of our surroundings. It's how we survive. It's normal.
I found that once I started pushing myself to think more kindly of others, I could slowly SLOWLY start thinking more kindly of myself - and by treating others with a committed kindness, and seeing them appreciate it, I started building self-worth through having a positive impact.
An example... I used to hate my nose - I thought it was way too big. Then I started looking at other people with big noses - and there are many - and realized I was judging them, too... maybe not as loudly and hashly because I was more obsessed with myself and them. Once I started seeing that other people with big noses can be incredibly beautiful as well, I kind of got over it. My nose is big. So what. The world didn't end when my nose grew too big.
Ultimately our value is not in our appearance (it fades), our talents (they are forgotten) or our personality (we change throughout our lives). The only value we can truly have and hold is how we make the people around us feel - not to the extent of extreme self-sacrifice, honestly... but if enough people enjoy being around you, because you make them feel appreciated and supported in a healthy way, you will start to create room in your mind to believe that you in fact DO have value.
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hi sarah and sandra,
ok answering sarahs question, i too am not good at public speaking but i guess the best thing is just practicing and having cue cards. perhaps even practice to other people and in the mirror.
sandra, i mean ill try but its sort of difficult. self worth has been an issue for me for years and years and is increasingly getting worse per day. its overall hard to, as you said get photos, as there’s practically nothing about myself i actually like apart from the other people in my life. thank you for the idea though and ill try to do it i just dont know if it will help aha
julia
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Hey Julia
Thanks for the tip on the mirror, that is really helpful, I gave that a go last night and it is weird seeing yourself talking to your self but it actually works, so I am going to keep doing that.
Hope you are doing well, I was just thinking so much about how you are feeling about yourself and I am wondering how we can help you see how wonderful you are. I was happy to read that you do "like the people in your life", that is awesome, I would just like you to have some love for you. So I don't have the answer yet but I am going to go away and find out as I would really like to help you on this journey to find some love for you as you are such a caring and wonderful young lady and I would like to help you see that too..if you would like that is....
So yay it is Friday....do you have anything planned for the weekend?
I am somewhat excited as I am going to buy new shoes for the presentation day...I love shoes..lol
Hope to chat some more soon Julia
Sarah 🙂
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hi sarah,
sorry i took a while to reply my account isnt working. well i just had people over for a sleepover and went to town to watch a movie with some of my friends. tomorrow im having lunch with my family. thanks for putting time into talking to me and trying to find new ways to help me, i really appreciate it. and as for you, what are you doing/have you done this weekend?
julia
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Hey Julia
Please do not be sorry for taking time to reply, i am happy you are out there living your life, that is really great that you have been spending time with your friends and had a sleep over and then saw a movie..what did you see? Lunch with the family sounds great, I miss those sorts of things, my family is kind of all over the place so those things tend not to happen so often. I have had my mum come stay with me this week so I took her home today, watched my daughter play netball and did some housework....hugely exciting weekend for me..lol..I am actually just enjoying some quiet time tbh...tomorrow morning baseball and then some grocery shopping...#mumlife..lol..all good though as Christmas will be here before we know it and the kids are getting there lists in already..hmmmm ...earpods..lol
It is my absolute pleasure to help you and be here for you, I want you to see the amazing girl that I can see you are and as I said, I am going to do some research into finding ways to develop your self love so that you too can see the beautiful girl that your friends and family see..and that I get to chat to.
I am off to do my teeth whitening now..lol
Chat soon Julia
Sarah
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hi sarah,
i saw last christmas-super ready for the christmas season. thank you sk much for trying to research but i completely understand if i cant be helped lol
julia
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Hey Julia
That is so great that you are getting ready for the Christmas period, what is on your wish list this year? It sounds like you really enjoyed the movie which is great, it does seem like a really beautiful movie.
I have been doing a lot of talking with my friends and some of them have some great ideas and I still want to talk to a few more people, you are so worth it sweet girl and I want to give you as much info as I can so that you can choose some things that might help you. I want to do everything that I can to help you to see a beautiful girl and that the future is so bright for you.
Hugs for you Julia
Sarah
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hi sarah,
i have no idea whats on my christmas list-christmas is more about seeing loved ones rather than gifts anyway so presents dont really matter much to me.
julia
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Hey Julia
That is really beautiful and I am glad that you feel like that, spending time with loved ones far out ways any material thing that you can give someone. I hope my kids feel like you do one day, things like that, you cant teach people that sort of thing, you are a good egg and a very good human.
Huge hugs for you J
S
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Hey Julia
So I have been doing some thinking and I have been doing some talking and actually one of the girls I am chatting to here has done something that I think will be amazing for you to try, I hope you agree with me in the value of trying this little thing...ok..
So what it is that it would be so wonderful if you could write a letter to yourself, no one will see it and no one will read it, it is just for you to put away and open later on, maybe next year. If you could write this letter from the view point of the third person and in this letter I want you to describe yourself, both inside and outside, it can only be positive things though and if you can't say something nice about yourself you can just acknowledge it..for example, you have really beautiful eyes....you could say that you like the colour of them instead if you can't say beautiful, or instead of saying "your smile can light up a room", you could say "you have a pretty smile"....I just want you to perhaps sit infront of the mirror and take some time to look at yourself and write about what you see as well as how you are feeling, it will be weird and maybe a little awkward but I think this will be a start for you to help you start to see each part of you and the beauty you have..both external and internal...you can say things like "Julia you have so much empathy and the way you care for others is wonderful".
Even if this letter is a work in progress and you do it over a week or a month and then put it away and open it next year. Then when you reflect on this letter, I think something really wonderful is going to happen.
I know this might sound weird but how would you feel about having a go at this?
Looking forward to hearing what you think.
Hugs
Sarah
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