i hate myself

[justarando]

i genuinely hate myself. there is not one thing i like about the way i look, what i can do or my personality. i do musical theatre, which a few years ago was something i thought would be great for confidence and since i loved singing, but it made me realise how bad i am. i cant stop comparing myself to my friends and just constantly feel worthless. when the topic of self love starts up i just want to cry because ive tried so hard to change but i cant love myself for who i am. musical theatre and singing was something i was once interested in but now hate doing but i cant quit because without it ill have no friends. plus, ive always had a difficult time making friends so ive already gone to a psychologist about it and moved schools within the past few months. i just dont know what to do but if i show any sign of doubting myself, people think im attention seeking when i cant help it. i practically now use it as sarcastic humour to hide my true feelings and how i just want to breakdown. why am i not good enough? why couldnt i have been anyone else? i just constantly feel useless, irrelevant and ugly

[justarando]

hi sarah

i accidentally forgot to post my reply to this thread. thank you, i will try and give that technique a try. i think it will mainly depend on if i can find anything i like about myself but ill try. thanks

julia

[Aaronsis]

Hey Julia

Great to hear from you, no apologies here, chat when you feel you want to.

I am so glad that you are going to try, that is all we can do in life is try and even if we fall down a few times that is totally fine, as long as we get back up.

It will be tricky and weird for you but just try and embrace it, you may even start with something easy, like my fingernails are really pretty and the colour looks great on me. But just start, it could be the most wonderful journey for you. You don't just only have to write things about what positives you see and feel but you can also go down the path of "In the future you are going to do this XXX" and "I cannot wait until I get to feel the beach of my feet when I travel to XXX"...these are just some starters.

I am so pleased that you have considered it, please don't think you have to write pages and get all bogged down, this is not a test and no pressure here..you may only start with one line...but you started.

Hope today brings a smile to you Julia

Hugs

Sarah

[Aaronsis]

Hi Julia

I just wanted to stop in and say I am thinking of you and I hope you are doing well lovely girl.

No pressure to respond, hopefully you are out there doing all sorts of fun stuff as the year comes to an end and Christmas is in sight.

Hope to chat soon,

Hugs

Sarah

[justarando]

hi sarah

was a bit busy with school and stuff sorry. thanks for constantly checking up on me though

julia

[Aaronsis]

Hey Julia

Great to chat to you and glad you have been doing some things to keep you busy. Hope that the year end is bringing lots of cool school things to do.

Hope to chat soon.

S xx

[Aaronsis]

Just a note from me to you to let you know I am thinking of you and hoping you are having a wonderful time in life.