I don’t even care anymore

[Lucette]

I don’t think I’m suicidal. But honestly I don’t care about being alive anymore. I don’t want to wake up. I don’t want to answer snaps. My family doesn’t give a shot either so that super funn

[BlueWren1]

Hi Lucette,

It must be difficult to go through. I am glad you posted on here. Continue to reach out.

[Lucette]

my house is super dysfunctional, so mostly its fighting. my sister used to go through the same thing and used to talk about suicided and self harming and my brother has, dyslexia, and a form of autism and my other brother gets super anxious. so they get a lot of attention and my parents just assume im fine.

most of the time i deserve it, but ive fought with them so many times about why they take my phone. basically everything just ends in us fighting. but they are finally starting to acknowledge me.

thanks for answering all of my stupid rants its really helpful

[Guest_4643]

Hey Lucette.

I'm really sorry to hear all of that. You don't deserve any of what you've been through, nobody here does.

It's a shame that your family is dysfunctional, I wish I could help you more. I'm sorry you and your sister talk about SH and suicide, I wish I could offer more support, and that your brother has Dyslexia and Autism.

Please know that I do care for you, and I'm here, I'll try my best to support you even if I can't find the words and I can't help much.

You're loved, and you're cared for. You deserve to be here, not SH and end your life. We care about you, you're safe here. We want you to be safe and seek support.

Trust me, I know how hard it is having suicidal and SH thoughts, I really do, because I have them pretty much daily.

And your rants aren't stupid, that's what BB Forums are for, you're just seeking support and that's perfectly ok, it's actually very brave, so good on you for joining and sharing your story.

I'm proud of you, your sister and brother for still being here.

[Lucette]

thank you so muchhh!

[Guest_4643]

Hi Lucette, I hope you're ok xx

[Lucette]

hey, it really hasn't gotten better, but I have a therapist appointment now, so that's good. thank you

[Ggrand]

Hello Lucette...

That really is a good step forward....

I hope so much with professional care that you get help and guidance that will help you to continue to move forward...

Please keep us updated on how your going if and when you feel up to it...

My kind thoughts..

Grandy..

[quirkywords]

Lucette

i am glad you have a therapist appointment.

write down some points or cut and paste your post so you can sow the therapist.

[Lucette]

thank you so much!