Dear MuffinTM~
You have an awful lot on your plate every day. Autism, ADHD, depression conversion disorders make a huge difference to one's life, they can really rule it.
For just about everybody grief is a tricky thing. It would be easier to cope with if it was always the same but that is not the case. An only freind is very special, and to loose that person may well bring out a reaction you have never had before - even when others were lost.
Can I ask what you are scared about, is it life without a freind, or the strangeness of the new symptoms or ... ?
These symptoms can be upsetting and worrying, however the number of people that get mad - and get so het up they don't breath properly , is pretty big.
When things get bad is there anyone special you go you - one of your parents, a brother or sister if you have any, or someone else in your family? I've found it can really help to talk about the person who has gone.
Main thing is not to try to go it alone, I would like it if you came back here and talked some more
Croix
