dear Lotus, would like to welcome you to the site.
One of the main problems that most of us have experienced is that at first we deny our depression and think that it will just go away by itself, but this never happens, and our depression becomes much worse to the point where you are now, but fortunately you have realised that after nine years of torture that you do have depression, it's not having a bad day, or a bad period, it's some illness that has attached itself to you.
Your just a young adult with so many prospects to look forward to, but it's impossible to do anything because this illness has confined you to bed, probably sleeping most of the day, while most of your friends are racing ahead with their careers, hobbies and girl/boyfriends, so this really upsets you, because you have no desire to do anything.
This is where you need professional help, starting with your GP, who will begin the road to recovery, it's not going to be easy for you, and there's no point for me to say that it will easy, because that would be lying to you, and on this site honesty is the key function for all of us.
At the moment it's very important to seek help, and I'm not sure if you have any, but please let us know.
The other point that I would like to make is that people your age or even younger come to this site for help, advice and suggestions, but for some reason they become scared, and I really wished that this wouldn't happen, because we are just a bunch of people who have gone through exactly what you are going through, so all we want to do is help you. Geoff.
