CANNOT DEAL

[anilenoisxo]

I can't quite put my finger on whether I'm in denial of being depressed or if I'm just overreacting. Im 21 with absolutely no motivation to life, I feel all sorts of ugly everyday, epitome of useless, I'm fat - so my partner tells me every time things get heated and am also 3 months pregnant.

Prior to all this low, I was a happy, giving and OTT (over-the-top) cheerful and always on-the-go gal. Everyone can vouch for that.

Every single day I lock myself in the room for hours on end and just cry. I feel so lonely and I can't talk to anyone about it because i've always been seen as the strong girl with a strong mentality. But this this feeling is eating away at me and I dont know what to do anymore.

Im sick of crying, feeling ugly, being ugly.

I HATE EVERYTHING :'(

[Guest_9466]

Congratulations on your pregnancy. I am sorry to hear you are feeling so low. Have you seen your GP about your depression and low motivation? Are you under the care of a gynaecologist? If you haven’t to both, may I suggest that you go to see your GP ASAP. Hopefully, your GP will tell you that during pregnancy, your body is subjected to hormonal change as it prepares your womb to nurture your baby. This maybe why you felt the way down and tearful. Of course, your partner’s lack of support doesn’t help. Please, please seek medical help and also, perhaps see a dietician if your weight gain is getting excessive so that you are eating the right type of diet that enhances yours and your baby’s well being.

[angelicdoan21]

Congratulations on the baby!

From reading what you've posted it seems you may have some degree of depression but of course i am no professional of any sort. It is definitely worth seeing a professional to see if you are in fact suffering depression.

From my own experience i've found that the way i have overcome or learnt to deal with my own depression is just by accepting it. Accepting that it is there but also accepting that it doesn't change who i truly am, and also accepting that the things the depression makes me say, think, or do are not from my true self but from the depression. I think of it as another mind. I know its there, ive accepted that it is there but i have also accepted that it isnt me at all. So i do genuinely hope that if you do have depression that you learn to accept it as the first step to overcoming it!

I'm proud of you, and everyone else around you is as well!

Angelic

[quirkywords]

Anilenoisxo,

Welcome to the forum. This is a safe, friendly, caring and supportive place .

Congratulations on the baby. Pregnancy can be a wonderful time but it is also a confusing time with moods changing all the time depending on the hormones.

I remember with my first pregnancy feeling sick a lot and then feeling excited then feeling so sad I would cry in the supermarket.

I assume you are seeing a GP and maybe an obstetrician as well. You need to be looking after yourself and it is important you are eating well.

You are not ugly. You know you are not fat you are pregnant . Can you join a group of pregnant women around your age maybe from the local health centre. ?

A lot of women will be able to relate to you.

Quirky