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Why don't I know how I feel?

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Before i write this id like to state I do have aspergers(diagnosed). I think i may have depression and anxiety of sorts. I mean i have anxiety attacks often and well I usually feel shit. If I feel anything. Main point for this is well. I need help I ... View more

Before i write this id like to state I do have aspergers(diagnosed). I think i may have depression and anxiety of sorts. I mean i have anxiety attacks often and well I usually feel shit. If I feel anything. Main point for this is well. I need help I dont know how i feel a solid 95% of the time and I have no idea why situations happen and I have no idea how to respond or feel. Like something can happen and I know I should feel a certain way but i feel nothing. Sometimes I do feel things that I dont understand. Like... I wont understand why i feel it. If its good. Or bad. Or what it even feels like in general. The more i think about it and try to find out the more lost I get and confussed. I question if at those times I'm even feeling anything at all?? I just dont understand what to do sometimes I feel certain ways and I know I do like a song will make me happy or sad. Or I'll have random times where I feel horrible about myself and just depressed. I'm not sure what's goin on. I dont know how to respond or feel and ah I know I'm probably repeating myself a lot but its so hard to explain how I feel cause I honestly have no clue. like i said the more I try to figure it out the more lost I get. Its so scary sometimes. like I had a mental breakdown really badly once and I was crying then i stopped and just couldnt cry anymore and I just felt numb like I think I needed to let more out but just couldn't it doesnt work. i have a thing where if I'm upset I cant properly be myself and express it. like even if I try its so god damn hard. I just cant. I think that may be because of my aspergers. i explain this to people like friends and they say im fine but I really don't think I am

Struggling with HSC

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The HSC exams are coming up very soon but I'm struggling to find the energy and motivation to get up, let alone study. I've basically spent the past week lying in bed and doing nothing, except for a couple of questions from a past paper. I know I tha... View more

The HSC exams are coming up very soon but I'm struggling to find the energy and motivation to get up, let alone study. I've basically spent the past week lying in bed and doing nothing, except for a couple of questions from a past paper. I know I that desperately need to study but when I try I can't concentrate at all and my brain feels like it's moving through sludge. It's frustrating and I'm sick of feeling like this. I know the HSC isn't everything, but I still feel like a huge failure. I think it's disappointing the people around me and not meeting their expectations that bothers me a lot as well. I just really want the HSC to be over.

anxiety before bed. help.

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i’m typically having a decent day but once i get into bed preparing for sleep, i start to get anxiety and nervous to sleep. i don’t like sleeping at night, i feel like i won’t wake up or i’m out for too long. i usually get 4-5 hours of sleep everyday... View more

i’m typically having a decent day but once i get into bed preparing for sleep, i start to get anxiety and nervous to sleep. i don’t like sleeping at night, i feel like i won’t wake up or i’m out for too long. i usually get 4-5 hours of sleep everyday, last night i slept at 5am because i couldn’t sleep. i start hearing things like noises of movement so i get up and check it out to reassure myself that it’s my mind playing tricks. i sleep with weapons next to me because i have a big fear of strangers in my home. i live with my family and i get paranoid to sleep with my lights off because i am terrified. is this abnormal? am i just overthinking. please help me.

Fat, Depressed, Angry and Scared

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Hi, So, I've never done this whole posting a thread thing before, but here it goes because I need advice. I've always been the fat person, everyone has always told me I'm the fat person. Whether it's my friends, my parents, other family members or ju... View more

Hi, So, I've never done this whole posting a thread thing before, but here it goes because I need advice. I've always been the fat person, everyone has always told me I'm the fat person. Whether it's my friends, my parents, other family members or just random people. They'll say subtle things, or not so subtle things, depending on how they feel. I'm used to this. But I'm getting sick of being used to this. I started messing with my body some time around last year. I decided I would eat whatever I wanted, whenever I wanted and as much of it as I wanted. It felt good at first, but 35 kilos extra later, it doesn't anymore. Of course, my parents comment on how I've gained weight recently but I'm used to feeling threatened and shamed by their comments that they still don't seem helpful to me. I'm angry and sad all the time and I'm constantly, and I mean CONSTANTLY, thinking about my body and how fat I am and how much I hate it. I'm being so unhealthy that I'm scared I'll get really sick, I don't know how to change this around. Sometimes, I feel like just stopping eating altogether. The saddest part is I know that if I was thinner I still wouldn't be happy, but the people around me would be. I feel really stuck. I want to be okay with my body, but I've never been okay with my body so I don't know what I'm aiming for. I feel that the way my body is has been rejected by the people I love and that really hurts. I don't really know if anyone can help me out on this forum, but it was cool to get some of this off my chest. Thanks, Stay safe everyone.

High school battle

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Hi, I am currently in year 9 at high school, the first two years of high school were pretty great, I had heaps of friends, a good study habit and social life but this year is probably the worst it’s been by a lot. The first term was fine until my two... View more

Hi, I am currently in year 9 at high school, the first two years of high school were pretty great, I had heaps of friends, a good study habit and social life but this year is probably the worst it’s been by a lot. The first term was fine until my two closest friends in my group left. I then began to feel more distant from the group and I really felt like I had no one. It then began term 3 and my group then began excluding me and ignoring me. I didn’t know why this had been happening. I then began sitting with different people each day or even alone and they didn’t seem to be bothered. I told one of the girls from my humanities class what had been happening and she said I could sit with her group. The girls she sits with is the “popular” girls group in my year. So I’ve been sitting with them but I never know what to say because I’m a really shy and awkward person so most of the time I just sit there which I hate. As much as I enjoy having people to sit with I really don’t enjoy sitting with them because all they do is gossip about each other which I don’t want to be a part of because I don’t know why people feel the need to talk about there friends. This has really put a strain on my grades as well because I’ve just been feeling unmotivated and I also feel a lot for anxious, stressed and I have lost a lot of confidence, which has made it harder to make friends. One of the classes I really am not doing to well in is maths, which used to be my best class and now it’s one of my worst. In my math class I don’t really have any friends so I sit next to this girl who get 100% in every test but she is really competitive and is always looking at my work, telling me I’m wrong, laughing at my test scores whilst she boasts how much better she is, and I really want to tell her that it makes me feel really insecure when she does these things but I really haven’t found the confidence to do so. Let alone the problems at school, home life isn’t too swell either. I have a special needs brother who is abusive and yells at me all the time. My parents fight a lot about money and my brother. I feel as though I have no where safe or where I can be in ease. I have spoken to my mum about moving schools and some of my primary school friends who go to different high schools, but I don’t know what to do, I can either wait it out at the school I currently am at but I don’t know what’s going to change or I can move schools and hope it’s going to be better. Thank you

I'm immature

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I have always acted immature, it drives away friends and family. Mostly this just consists of me making really bad, unfunny jokes or comments that frankly, just annoy people. I do it frequently, so much so that the majority of my part of any conversa... View more

I have always acted immature, it drives away friends and family. Mostly this just consists of me making really bad, unfunny jokes or comments that frankly, just annoy people. I do it frequently, so much so that the majority of my part of any conversation consists of such jokes. I struggle to make normal conversation with people, and when I try to I am often suck for something to talk about, I am dull and boring, I have no real interest outside of video games, the type of games I like none of my friends like, I go to uni and am studying politics and right of centre so no friends here. Sometimes I do try to make normal conversation with people, but they always take it under the context of me been stupid, and NEVER take anything I say seriously. None of my friends are really my own, after I moved highschool (Im 21) one teacher basically said "This guy will show you around", and he played games too, so basically I just stuck with him despite that we don't really share common interests.We both went to different Uni's and I moved away to the city and now only talk to him online, my only other friends are actually his "friends" from uni, and I never really actually have anything to do with them if he is not online. I really just want to have normal conversations with people, and have them regard me as someone they actually want to be friends with. I have also never had a GF, nor ever even kissed a girl, I did try to get into a relationship a couple of times, but I came of really creepy. While i'm on the point, I actually now try to avoid women so that don't feel as if i'm some sort of predator, and if ever I feel attracted to a woman I feel utterly disgusted in myself for being such a pervert.

Is this functional depression?

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Hey guys, I've never reached out before so I don't even know how to begin. I'll try to keep it concise. Bear with me. When I was 18, I had aspirations to wake up in the morning and love my job and travel the world. Now I'm almost 25, people around me... View more

Hey guys, I've never reached out before so I don't even know how to begin. I'll try to keep it concise. Bear with me. When I was 18, I had aspirations to wake up in the morning and love my job and travel the world. Now I'm almost 25, people around me are travelling the world and friends I had a uni have landed positions I really wanted after graduating that I haven't been able to obtain myself. It seems everyone is having such a great time living their 20s. I'm afraid that I'm wasting mine. Currently, I have a full-time job I dislike and basically just had to accept after finding it difficult to obtain the ones I wanted, have not been anywhere overseas and I have a very limited circle of friends. I feel I don't particularly have best friends who message and ring me to hang out all the time so I get kinda lonely. I was very fortunate to have met my partner who became my best friend. We live 1.5hrs away from each other and as time is getting closer to his phd submission date, I see him maybe twice a month if that. I've tried to talk to him about feeling lonely but he just doesn't get it because I don't think he has ever felt that way. So basically at the moment I'm getting by with this job I hate, see my partner once in a bluemoon and have very limited friends. I'm just rolling through the motions and not particularly loving life. Is this functional depression? Does anyone else feel like they are slowly wasting their 20s feeling like this? Any suggestions on some strategies? Cheers.

unimaginable suffering

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On the 19th of August, I witness my father pass away from a sudden heart attack. My world changed forever. At 21, my life and ambitions were starting to take shape, so sad to realise I can no longer share that with him. My life was always with him, w... View more

On the 19th of August, I witness my father pass away from a sudden heart attack. My world changed forever. At 21, my life and ambitions were starting to take shape, so sad to realise I can no longer share that with him. My life was always with him, we shared the world together. I've losed half of me in a way. On top of all this I suffer from server anxiety/OCD. Anger has made me lash out on people who have done wrong to my dad in the past. All this pain and suffering is only going to kill me too. I saw a therapist today, which didn't help, in fact made it worse. I don't know what to do anymore. She recommended medication, so I am still deciding. My mind is clouded atm. I guess I'll try my luck here. Can someone please help me out or share their story. I am lucky to have some supportive family members in all the chaos. I try to stay away from unhealthy foods and exercise, to help with the suffering. But I feel like my world is crashing down on me and I can no longer keep going. My mind is saying "I give up"

Struggling with alcohol and love

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Hey all! I’ve decided to create this thread because I need perspective and advice on the topic of being an aggressive drunk and possibly being a bad partner. The story goes like this. I’m a 20 year old male who struggles with depression and anxiety. ... View more

Hey all! I’ve decided to create this thread because I need perspective and advice on the topic of being an aggressive drunk and possibly being a bad partner. The story goes like this. I’m a 20 year old male who struggles with depression and anxiety. I met an incredible woman just over a year ago who I have connected with on a very deep and passionate level from the getgo. What we share is something truly special and great, however, recently I feel I have not been the man she deserves. About 6/7 weeks ago I was made redundant and lost my job. It was a real shock and something I feel has played a part in the spiralling of my life. At the moment I’m just hemoraging the money in my savings and feel like I have to start everything again. Alcoholism was a major problem for several of my family members and there have been many arguments and hurt feelings as a result. Yesterday we decided to go out for drinks with a handful of people for her upcoming birthday then headed back to a friends for a couple hours afterwards. Everything was going great until we got home. (It was very late). Earlier in the night a topic was brought up that had my girlfriend balling her eyes about a lot of the trauma she deals with and it truly pained me to see her so upset on her birthday weekend. For some reason the fact I cant fix this and knowing the situation has never properly been addressed subconsciously annoys me I think. Eventually we made it home where the problems started. I don’t remember the full details though I remember being mostly in the wrong. There were some remarks made that I drunkenly took offence to and then it exploded from there. a 5 minute back argument began however the important details are as follows Somewhere early in the argument I was called my mums name implying I’m as bad a drinker as her. This is a very touchy subject that sent me into an aggressive rage aimed at her. I began to yell at her and even sunk low enough to call her an idiot before I left the house in a blaze of anger. I returned 15 minutes later still fuming however i was ready to have a calm conversation. She didn’t want to talk so I waited in bed for her until I fell asleep. Upon waking up I wanted to sit down and discuss everything. Apologise and talk about how to move forward from the ordeal and upon being rejected I left the house rather annoyed. I was 100% in the wrong and I think it’s time to quit drinking and be a better man. How can I fix this and what’s wrong with me?

My family member doesn't understand my OCD and makes it worse on purpose

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I share a room with my family member who is a year younger than I am. I have very bad OCD and anxiety (which she knows) but she does things to upset me or make me panic. I have a phobia with germs, so I ask her kindly to please not do things on purpo... View more

I share a room with my family member who is a year younger than I am. I have very bad OCD and anxiety (which she knows) but she does things to upset me or make me panic. I have a phobia with germs, so I ask her kindly to please not do things on purpose to upset me such as; using my bedhead as a table for her food, leaving her clothing everywhere, messing up the rug (which really upsets me). (She kicks the rug all the time to make me upset). This morning, I was making my bed when I noticed she'd dropped a licked Popsicle stick on my blanket. I freaked out and told her to take it off and she said it wasn't hers as a joke. When she finally took it off, I was almost in tears, to which she replied 'I'm not a germ, so stop treating me like one!'. I said again, I've never called her a germ. I only ask she is respectful of my issues as I am of hers. She doesn't understand and if I tell on her about it, I'll get in trouble because she will start (fake) crying... I'm a new member, so I apologize if this is hard to read. What should I do?

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I'm immature

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Is this functional depression?

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unimaginable suffering

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Why don't I know how I feel?

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Struggling with HSC

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anxiety before bed. help.

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Fat, Depressed, Angry and Scared

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I'm immature

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Is this functional depression?

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My family member doesn't understand my OCD and makes it worse on purpose

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