Anyone else experience this before?

[webber]

I can't identifying what I'm feeling. It doesn't feel like one feeling, its more an
attack of multiple confusing feelings that come and go many times a
day. I try to look up on google to see if anyone else has identified
it but I don't even know what to write in the search bar.

I'm not to sure what to say since I cant really identify what I'm feeling. I don't know
how to describe it. Im not in unbearable pain like some peoples head
states can put them in but I'm definitely uncomfortable and sometimes
its very frustrating. I also get so angry so easily, and at the most
random stuff, for example... the sound of someone chewing or a bird
constantly chirping outside (pretty much any random noises that are
constant). I try not to get angry or focus on the noises but my brain
literally latched onto the sound and I feel my body fill with rage. I
usually stop the rage by pinching myself really hard or biting the
sides of my cheeks but its starting to effect my classes and work….
Along with the fact that all my body wants to do it sleep!!! I am so
unmotivated to get up and go of late that I start having little
conflicts with myself. I don't want to do anything and once I have
done nothing all day I get so mad at myself and tell myself tomorrow
will be different, I will put the effort in... but end up doing the
exact same thing. Its very repetitive and I know reading this you
might think I just need to break the cycle but its just so hard and I
don't understand why!

There are things that have happened in my lift the past year that I
sometimes think could be a huge factor as to why this is happening,
but then I feel as if its all in the past, it is all done and dusted
so why would it be a factor… Along with the fact that I don't feel
comfortable talking about it…. Im not too sure.
Anyways I'm just wringing this to see if letting it out in a way helps me, or see if
there is anyone that has experienced theses feelings and identify it.

[geoff]

hi Webber, there are so many times when we say to ourselves that the past 'is all done and dusted', well maybe however there are certain cicumstances that have got under our skin and these horrible thoughts keep on recurring, that's what is called PTSD, and these confusing feelings or thoughts that come and go are exactly what PTSD is, and to bite your cheeks or pinch yourself is not only going to harm you but won't stop how you feel in the long run.
You won't be able to understand why, because deep down it's issues that have been a problem awhile ago, but come to the surface to make you feel agitated, and because of this you need to see a psychologist who can work out what has been causing all of this.
This won't happen overnight nor will you be able to overcome this in one or two sessions it means that you need to make sure that you connect with this psych who totally understands what you are saying, and if you don't feel comfortable talking about it, then write them all done on a piece of paper which you can then hand over to the psych.
It's not a good idea to sit on this because it's only going to fester, so please contact your doctor with the piece of paper so that they can refer you to a psych. Geoff.

[MarkJT]

Webber, awesome stuff getting onto the forums to seek advice. Before I get onto other stuff, you said that you don't feel comfortable about it but you just did, in a cyber sense but you still sat there and typed the words out and pressed the button to post. That my friend, is courage. Well done.

From a PTSD sufferer who has recovered quite well, i see a lot of me in you and not knowing what is going on. My best advice is to back up what Geoff has said above, you need to get to a psych and discuss this. Be that through your GP but you need to do it.

You can get your life back on track and have a pretty clear brain but you need treatment. Think of this as no different to have a torn muscle in your leg, you need to rehab it.

Keep posting and let us know how you go. Would love to hear that you went to the GP and got a referral to the psych. Open up to them, i can just about guarantee you that what you tell them, they would have heard before so you are not surprising them.

Cheers

Mark