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[jst-sum1]

I'm here because when something happened to me I found a way to hide it from everyone. I have been running away from it for so long that now I feel its too late to tell my now husband of 2 and half years. I can't tell the people I used to be with or the people I'm with now because I fear they wont believe me as it happened so long ago and I never told anyone. I hate that they don't understand why I am the way I am or why I act the way I do and hide so much of me. I cannot bear to be this way anymore. I need to be strong for my children now, I cannot let them see how vulnerable I am and I cannot tell them what happened. I need to find a way to deal with this. I just don't know how>>>>>

[blondguy]

Hello jst-sum1

Welcome to the forums and especially for having the strength to post

You sound very stuck....and you have been through something awful....that much I can see...

I also see that you need to be strong for your children now....and good on you...

Can I ask what 'happened' to you? (if thats okay of course) I see that it happened a while ago..I understand..

There is a huge amount of super kind people here on the forums that can help you ......The forums are rock solid secure to ensure your privacy. I have had depression for many years and I know how to listen...

I hope you can post back jst-sum1

Maybe you can start here and we may be able help you 🙂

Paulx

[geoff]

hi jst-sum, before I begin I totally agree with Paul that although we know that people are struggling and suffering with PTSD it would be great to hear back from you.
If people have depression they want to hide it from others, but the longer they do this the worse their condition may get, as everything else just adds onto their problems so it become a big mess.
I can understand that they want to do this, but over the years for me I know that I shouldn't have done this myself, because when you eventually decide to talk someone, whether it be a friend , a family member or a doctor it's hard to know where you can begin.
Children are our strength but to keep pretending that all is OK will virtually wear yourself out, and maybe you don't have to tell them exactly what did happen because there could be other ways around this when you want to speak to them, so it would be great to get a reply back. Geoff. x