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[Falling_Angel]

Hi , my name is falling angel

I'm new as of today and thought I'd introduce myself

im looking forward to hearing from anyone and finding support and people whom I can connect with on life experiences

nicr to be here

I look forward to any reply

feeling down ...

😔

[white knight]

Hi falling angel, welcome

Best to head off to your GP FA, as you know we have to take care if our health hey?

I hope to find peace at this site. Many threads you might find clarity with.

Google these...

Topic: depression, a ship on the high seas- beyondblue

Youtube Maharaji sunset

Youtube Maharaji the perfect instrument

Tony WK

[Kazzl]

Hello Angel, welcome. It's lovely to meet you. Well done in posting, I know it's often hard to make that first post.

Sorry you're feeling down hun. I know what that's like, as do all of us here. Would you like to tell us a bit more about yourself and what's happening for you at the moment so we can try to help? Just say whatever you're comfortable saying.

I hope you'll have a good read around the forum too, because you might find others with similar circumstances and feelings and it often helps to hear things from their perspectives.

One thing is for sure hun - you're not alone in this.

Hope to hear back from you

Kaz

[RAB]

Hi Falling Angel,

Nice to meet you and well done for making contact. There a lots of people here who can share with their experiences similiar to yours. Great you have taken the first step by joining this forum, look forward to hearing from you again.

[Falling_Angel]

Hi ,thanks for replying

it took me ages to work out I had to go thru my emails to receive these notices , kinda feeling silly 😜 I'm 45yo female I have PTSD and manic depression I also have lots of medical problems ATM that doesn't help with the depression because if I wasn't so unable to do the things I used to love doing I wouldn't have so much time to think my doctor knows about my conditions just I have had lots of trouble with previous doctors and things got pretty messy so it's taken a long time to learn to trust again! I live alone with my cat I have 2 adult sons 28/25 and two grandchildren girl 3yo and boy 1yo I feel totally useless to them but I'm grateful my sons are understanding unfortunately I can't say the same for their partners but they don't need to know everything about me and shouldn't jump to conclusions my eldest son is very helpful but I feel guilty as I cared for both my mother and father 20years ago whilst they were dying and promised myself I would never take my own children down that road.... My mother was a alcoholic and also a child victim of sexual abuse my father was a compulsive gambler and used to bash my mum and take knives to her in front of us and threatened we be next if we didn't shut up etc my mother used to verbally abuse my dad until she pushed him over the edge it was horrible I blamed him as a child but not so much as a adult, yes a stronger better person walks away but in those days to where ? I was also sexually abused as a child and young teenager I managed to hold myself together after I had children for 14 years until I finally fell apart and all sorts of horrible things happened I didn't have the right support etc but the latest that I feel drove a nail in my coffin was being sexually assaulted a few years back as a adult by a gp he has since resigned from the medical board but still has to face police chargers coming up soon now the prosecution has all the evidence this is a daily struggle for me anxiety and stressing about court but I intend on following thru I just need help and support I do have a excellent DV counsellor I also see a mental health worker but I'm not sure that's the right title for her ! I have no family support besides my eldest son really and the professional ppl I deal with!

i have a awesome neighbour who put me onto this site, as we accidentally met and clicked with each other so I'm keen for your input thanks again for the welcome

falling angel

[Falling_Angel]

Hi I just replied to the first person and wrote a long list about me I'm unsure if everyone gets to read that or if I reply individual so I'm waiting to see thankyou for welcoming me ☺️

[Kazzl]

Hi Angel, no you don't have to reply individually, we can all read your posts.

Wow hun, you have sure been through the mill. I am glad you have good support from the professionals around you, and such a good neighbour.

You know what I see in your post - a survivor! To come through all that shows more strength than you might realise you have. I really admire that.

I can understand why you'd be stressed out about the impending charges and court case. But what I'd say is be guided by the police. It's in their hands now and they will progress it. If you possibly can, try to step back a bit from it and shift your focus to less stressful things. Stress feeds on itself and creates more stress and the cycle repeats - so breaking that cycle is important for your health and wellbeing.

Now is the time to really put yourself first, do good things and pleasant things for you. When we're depressed or stressed about something big, it's easy to forget that there are things we enjoy doing. Have a think about that - what do you enjoy, what can you do now to distract yourself and become absorbed in something that will relax you and make you feel good?

I hope you'll keep talking to us too - sometimes just getting it all out of our minds and into the open can shed new light on things and help lift our mood.

Very best wishes

Kaz

[Falling_Angel]

Thankyou kaz , I don't know what I like doing as everything that I used to do involved me being physically well ... So it's hard I can't even potter in the garden I have severe nerve damage a bulging disc squashing my L4 root nerve so I'm in constant pain plus other medical problems I have a operation coming up doctor said could take away 20/30 percent of my pain but I'm dreading it as the last one in August I'm still recovering from and this is same area (private) and I've been missing the pre admission to try to put off the operation but can't do that much longer... Lately all I do is basic stuff and then try to lay comfortable as I can on the couch and watch Netflix! Great distraction for bad thoughts tho ! Lol THANKYOU for being so kind I don't know what else to say today my head is blank I've been sleeping a lot lately

i do have a fantastic neighbour there is hope for a really good friendship and I had given up on friends so that itself is a leap forward

i hope your all doing well

enjoy the day .

sincerley angel

[Kazzl]

Hi Angel - I'm sorry you're in so much pain. I can only imagine how debilitating that must be.

Your physical and personal comfort is essential and if that means you need to spend time on the couch, so be it, especially if you find movies a good distraction. What sort of movies do you like?

I find things like colouring in, reading and doing crosswords are a good distraction too. And chatting on here 😄. It's always good to talk with others who 'get' us.

We have a Social Zone on the forum with lots of threads for people who just want to chat and connect with group of others. The BB Cafe thread is especially good for just popping in, saying hi, and talking about, well anything really. So if you're looking to make new friends and distract yourself, maybe have a look there. I know you'd be very welcome. Let me know if you have any trouble finding it.

And of course I hope you'll keep posting here to so we can get to know you better.

Sounds like you have a lovely neighbour - that's very special, and not so common these days.

Hope to talk with you soon

Cheers hun

Kaz

[Dusk_Dawn]

So sorry, like talking Angel I am new and I don't know how to post my own thread; I really need some advice on bipolar and bpd which my husband has.

i am lost.

thanks