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[DJA51]

Hi, I am a chronic depressive, with some instances of anxiety. Depression has been my shadow companion for 38 years, but mostly with medication and counselling, it has not prevented me engaging fully in life and work in education. Three years ago yesterday my son suicided, and the journey of grief has increased the “depressive slumps” and bouts of anxiety. Last week, after 4 grandsons, we welcomed our first granddaughter. It’s been an incredible week of emotions and I’ve been hit hard with lethargy and a feeling of flatness. I chose to check out Beyond Blue and see what resources are available. It’s been reassuring to read of others feeling much the same.

[jess334]

Hi DJA51,

Welcome to the beyond blue forums. I'm glad you decided to stop by. It is a great space with lots of people who have similar experiences with mental health and all are very supportive.

I am sorry about your son. The pain of losing someone through suicide never really goes away.

Congrats on your newest family addition. I bet you are excited to finally buy a few baby girl dresses.

I hope you start feeling a bit less flat soon. Enjoy the new baby smell.

Jess

[Peppermintbach]

Hi DJA51,

I’m deeply sorry for the loss of your son. To lose a child is always heart breaking, but to have lost him by his own hand must have been absolutely devastating. I can’t even imagine how heartbroken you must have felt and feel...

Congratulations on your first granddaughter 🙂 She must be so special to you and your family...

I must admit that your post me tear up. Just the sheer mix of emotions. Something as tragic as your son’s passing 3 years ago to something as joyous as your granddaughter’s recent arrival into the world...I felt a whole roller coaster ride of emotions in your post.

I agree it helps to feel less alone in our struggles. You have clearly been through a lot, but I’m glad you seem to be managing your depression okay, and that you’re reaching out here...

Is it okay if I ask would you like to tell us a little more about what has been happening? There’s no pressure to reply of course, but if you’re feeling up to it, it would be lovely to get to know you a little better.

Kind and caring thoughts,

Pepper