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[hutchii]

Hi ALL

I dont know where to go, who to talk to

I'm just a regular guy. married, kids, nice house, nice job. and 90 percent of the time I think i'm Normal

but then there's this other side, where I do stupid stuff. I dont mean to do it, I know im doing it, but I cant stop me doing it. and after im like WTF is wrong with you.

Now it probably going to cost me my marriage

my minds going a million miles an hour, thoughts ideas, feelings, all popping in and then out, I can't grasp or hold onto any of them.

If I can stay busy and focused on a task its ok, but as soon as im not, then off it goes. My eyes hurt, every single sound is at the the same volume. .I get agitated, cranky

in social situations I shut down because every single damm noise, voice is at full volume

Then its almost like something/someone takes over.. thats when i do weird dumb stuff. Im there im seeing it, doing it, cant stop it

I play mind games, manipulate,

silly things mostly, but recently having to work for an extend period on my own, got worse till I did somthing that Id never

Im my job Im friendly likeable, outgoing, im in sales. but its a switch i turn on

sorry this is rambling i need to talk to somene, dont know where to start

cheers

[Croix]

Dear Hutchii~

I'd like to welcome you here and ask if you would like to say more. You have said several times you do things that you would not normally do - can you give any sort of idea of what you mean.

I know we also do things that are inadvisable at times, I blurt out how I'm feeling at times when I should keep quiet, and can lose my temper when it is not really either kind or justified. However I have the feeling this is not what you mean.

I can relate to almost standing outside myself and watching me do and feel things. Almost like there was a barrier between me the doer and me the observer.

With noise my hearing is supplemented with hearing aids, and as a result in social situations the unimportant noises tend to drown out the peach I'm trying to concentrate on, is your sensation anything like this?

It does sound as if these things are causing you a great deal of worry, have you been to see a doctor?

I do hope you come back and talk again

Croix