Dear Png~
I'm sorry that your family has broken up. I did read your other two posts where you offered help to others, something not all can do and shows a caring nature. I realize it is 6 years or more since you saw your kids, also that you are unsure as to the reasons for the separation.
Having sadness and depression long term is a very hard hing to live with, and it does reflect on others too. Your family situation will sadly only make matters worse as you are wondering if it is all you.
Not many breakups are caused by just one person, or just one thing. It is very easy to assume all the blame, and to try to live with that, even though in reality it takes two. You are probably shouldering a lot more burden than is right.
May I ask if you have been having treatment for your sadness and depression? I ask as I found I was incapable of improving until I had competent medical support, with therapy and medication. Even then it has been a slow process, though I'm now in a pretty good place.
Do you have any family or friends you can talk with to give you perspective and show care? I found it made a huge difference if personal support is there.
Would you like ot come back and talk some more?
Croix
