Hi, I'm hoping to connect with others who understand my story and can offer me some hope!
I come from a family of three siblings and consider myself to come from a very dysfunctional family. I grew up with a depressed father, who worked very hard to provide but, wasn't there for us in the way a father should be. My mother was verbally abused from him throughout their marriage and I suppose you could've has viewed them as an odd couple. The dynamics have caused quite a few arguments throughout the family over the years and we all now just tend to do our own thing and, live our own lives. I admit I try to stay as much away from the family and see my parents on the odd occasion, avoiding family dinners and special occasions.
In the last year, to say my world has turned upside down is an understatement. My husband has suffered a catastrophic injury at work, which has resulted in him losing his independence and, may result in him not being able to work in his industry again. He's also not able to drive and not sure if he ever will.
I've have watched this incident result in loss of friendships, lack of trust, feelings of helplessness and isolation. I have re-evaluated every single person I called our friends, and feel saddened by the lack of humanity and support.
I am a mother to three children and feel that I haven't been able to be a proper mother since the accident. I've driven my husband to and from appointments, at times up to four times a week.
I'm saddened that not one person has had any compassion for me as a human and at times, I feel so exhausted Id be happy to just not wake up. The most hardest part of this whole situation, is accepting things have now changed and the least you expect from friends and family, the less disappointed you'll be.
Right now, I am just surviving putting one foot in front of the other and go to bed trying to sort out how out situation is going to get better. As parents we had plans for the future, now we fear what's ahead. My husband has had therapy but is now showing symptoms of PTSD and I can see the effects it's had on my children.
A smile can hide the pain but the heart breaks slowly in pieces every day watching my husband, who was once a strong healthy man, turn into a recluse. I do often ask, "Where is my happily ever after?". I have no answers right now and hoping you can share your experiences with me.
I look forward to it.
