im still getting the hang of things

[kristy2]

i think it started year 2 of pramry school i was heverly bullied becasuse i was the only girl in the class ( i went to a very small school) but primerly cause i am dislexic i couldnt read or write as well as the other kids and had to go to specal class's i would always sit alone some times the older kids would sit with me.

this hapeend intill i moved schools when i was in year 5 then things where better but i was still one of the differnt kids cause i lived in a run down house in a rich suberb and my family isnt what you would call financially stable i couldnt go or do the things other kids where doing so they would dich me i know that sounds petty and dont get me wrong but it did make a differcen when you couldnt go on school excursions and kids yell out that your too poor really dose get to a kid.

the being of high was one of the best things that happend to me sounds werid but because there are so many diffrent kids with differnt abilities i found people that kind of spoke my language if you know what i mean. everything was going fine intill well my mother decided to leave with out telling anyone of my family members and like anyone else that kind of tore me apart..

i try talking to people about how i was feeling but my brain kinda didnt let me if you know what i mean and no one ever ask if i was okay so i just keeped quite that went on for a while i was crying most nights and couldnt sleep and thinking not the best things. i knew i had to do somthing so i just sort of forced myself to go out side and started hanging out with just close friends again and that really helped (quick tip : do not drink when your going through things it dosent go well) so after all that shit happend i was feeling good again.

about a year later and i dont know what triggered it but i just got really bad and there was nothing i could do i stopped coming home and i wasent just hurting myself i was doing it to the people who cared about me when i realised how bad i was actually getting i decided to get some help i went to my GP they were very help full i am still trying to get the hang of things but i feel as i am getting a lot better and this is great cause i havent said most of these things to anyone its great to get of my chest!

[Zeal]

Hi Kristy,

Welcome to the forum!

Good on you for coming to the forum to talk about your tough past experiences, and how you sought help when things became overwhelming. It's great to have a helpful GP. Have you also considered getting a referral from your GP to a counsellor or psychologist? It sounds as though there is some trauma from the past that needs to be dealt with emotionally.

Whenever you want or need to talk to someone understanding in-between doctor appointments, you can call Beyondblue's 24/7 support service on 1300 22 4636. If you feel at risk of harm, Lifeline is on 13 11 14. Even if you don't think you'll require these services, you could save the numbers in your phone in case.

Do you have someone in your life that you can talk to and that you trust? It could be an old friend from school, a cousin, neighbour, anyone really. Having social connections is helpful, as support from those we trust and respect is beneficial for emotional wellbeing.

It would be great to hear back from you!

Best wishes,

Zeal

[Guest_128]

Hey Kirsty,

I'm still getting the hang of things too.

just wanted to say hi🤗