Hi Beyond Blue community.
I’m new here, but my head has been like this forever. I hope you like my username, it took me all of three minutes to pick - I’m already trying to start being more proactive in timely decision making (see further below for why I’m explaining this).
I’m a thirty something woman, awaiting for my first appointment with a psychiatrist - hopefully quickly as I’m falling and falling quickly.
I always thought how I felt or how I live life was ‘normal’. I always thought that how I feel is how everyone feels but now I’m not so sure. I’m not sad, nor depressed - my mind feels weird, like I’m going and going, though I don’t want to, it’s draining now.
I dont want to self diagnose but for the last two years, and after discussions with family, it has allowed me to rethink that what I feels isn’t normal. Now I’m using ‘normal’ colloquially because there’s no such thing as normal but I guess to define anyone that is different to me. I’m open to a diagnosis of GAD, OCPD, ADHD or all. Weirdly, I’m excited, I need to relate to something in the hopes that one day, I can receive treatment that’ll make me feel calmer and be a better mother.
I have been tracking my habits - I don’t call them symptoms as to me, they’re normal. Most have been existent for the entirety of my life as a minimum, or for many, many years.
Welcome to my imperfectly perfect life.
