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[scrubsfan90]

Hi, first ever post

I'm in my mid 20's and recently became depressed for the first ever time. Late last year I resigned from my job of 5 years - I enjoyed my job and liked what I did. The reason I left was due to only working on a part-time basis and as i'm getting older part-time work just isn't enough. I made the decision to look for full-time work and after months of applying and one failed job interview I was successful in getting a full-time position.

Whilst I was happy I got the job I feel I didn't prepare myself for the new job - I adored my previous job and it wasn't until the second week of being in the new job I realised I made the wrong choice. In the third week I was struggling and had some dark thoughts - I told the manager how I was feeling and later that day I spoke with a counsellor. I told my parents what I almost did to myself and it was difficult to do but I had to tell them. They were shocked but they listened and told me they love me. I went in to the new job 2 days later and said I won't be continuing.

I went in to my previous job and let them know that I quit and if my old job was available to let me know if it was being advertised. In the weeks that passed I become sad and didn't want to leave the house. With no income I was struggling to pay for little things like getting a coffee. Fortunately I live with my parents and am single & childless so my overall expenses aren't too much. I have since heard from my previous job and they let me know my job went to someone else. The good news is I've had a job interview recently but am yet to hear from them. I don't know how long I will be unemployed for but I don't want it to go on much longer. I liked working so being unemployed has been quite the struggle for me.I've accepted that I can't have my old job back but i'm really scared as i'm not sure when i'll have a job again. It's only been 2 months but it feels like it's been much longer.

I'm seeing a counsellor soon and hopefully i'll feel better after that. I think it's what I need as i'm feeling sad a lot and I just want to be happy.

Thanks for reading

[Agnetha]

scrubsfan

hi and welcome to beyond blue. First of all, congratulations  lasting 5 years at  previous job. This should look good on resume with referees. What was it about your last job that you liked? I ask this because maybe you should look for something similar. As long as your parents don't mind helping you out a little, financially for a while, I don't see a need to worry too much. Try to see the time now as an opportunity to explore  other parts of your life such as hobbies. Life is more than work! Later on, when you work full-time, you may look back and miss this time off.

Good luck