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[silhouette]

Hey,

I've been here a while, but I usually just lurk. I've been too afraid to post anything, but I'm more afraid of going backwards. I've been diagnosed with depression, and anxiety (mostly social). I also struggle with accepting my emotions. When I was a child I'd cry to the point of making myself sick, and because of the way people reacted I've always felt like it's wrong to cry. I think I'm slowly coming to accept that crying is okay, but I don't think I have anyone around me who can even grasp what it must feel like. I've tried to open up and explain things and have been rejected, which makes it hard for me to open up again and keep going. I feel that most people around me are only listening to what they want to hear.

Even if you don't respond, thank you for taking your time to read this. I'm sorry if this is long, I just had to blurt my feelings out. I keep them in for so long. I don't want to burden people, but at the same time I'm hurting myself by keeping it all in. Sorry if I posted this in the wrong place, I'm really confused and emotional right now.

[Bethie]

Hi

It's ok...never be sorry for reaching out for help.

I suffer anxiety as well and can relate to how you feel. With 1 job I had there was days where I would sit in my car crying before being able to go into work. Even at school things got so bad that at one point I had a bad rash around my neck from anxiety and my big sister put makeup over it and wrote me a note saying that I had experienced a allegic reaction.

Crying can be good...people who Don't tend to be detached emotionally.

If you haven't allready please go and see your GP and have a talk to them. It can make a world of difference.

Let us know how you go

[Birdy77]

Hi silhouette,

It's great that you've reached out, as Bethie said, never be sorry for doing so, or for crying.

Tears can be a river that can take us someplace better. I think crying is healthy, so i am glad you are learning to do this again.

You said you have been diagnosed with depression and anxiety, do you have a counsellor or psychologist who is supporting you through this?

You said you've opened up to those around you and been rejected. I assure you that you wont be rejected here. You can use this space to talk about your feelings, and we will listen and care.

I hope you come back and talk more if you would like.

Go gently with yourself.

🌻birdy.