🙂 It's easy to talk about my husband because he really is amazing...sure we piss each other off from time to time, but every couple does that. In the 25 yrs we've been married I think we've only had one major arguement. I was married about 18 or 19 years the first time, to another lovely man, both husbands share the same first name. 🙂 I don't think I knew what real love was till I met my present husband, he's just very yummy.... even at 80 years old. 🙂
I think I was "in friendship" with my first husband when I married him, not "in love" with him. He was also very gentle and kind, but I gave him hell, because of my undiagnosed depression I'm sure. My dad was very dominant and I vowed I'd never let a man dominate me, so I married this poor soul. I'd known him all my life so he was "easy pickings" for me. We're still friends and he's found true love with his second wife. I've apologised to him for my lack of love for him, and I'm glad he's happy now. We have 2 adult children, one I'm on good terms with but I'm estranged from my daughter. I don't blame her for hating me, I wasn't a good mother to her, and she had a lot of emotional problems as a child which we didn't know how to treat. I've also apologised to her, but I don't blame her for not wanting me in her life, I can't change the sins of my past regarding her, I just wish I could, but we're better apart. I think we're too much alike.
All I can do now is try and be a kinder, better person for the rest of my life, I can't change the past.
Anyway, I'm glad I let you smile. 🙂
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