Hi,
First time seeking support. I’ve been feeling empty and sad for a number of years, some days are fine and other days I am completely stressed out and overwhelmed and break down crying. I have just had my fifth baby, which was unplanned but I still love her to bits. Most days I don’t get a minute to myself until all the kids are asleep and then I’m so tired I just want to watch TV and go to bed. I have no desire to be intimate with my husband which makes me feel guilty and upset. I know I need to find ‘me’ time but even when I try to do things for myself, it’s very infrequent and doesn’t really cheer me up that much. I don’t have anything to look forward to other than returning to my job in a few months, which I love. I don’t have any close friends to talk to, only people I ‘hang out with’ because of my kids. I just don’t know where to start and how to feel better. Some days I just feel like walking out of my house and not coming back, but I could never do that to my family - it’s just the thoughts I have. Have I got post-natal depression? I think I do.. if I bring up how I’m feeling with my husband he tries to support me but I don’t think he understands how hard things are every day for me. Just need someone to listen really and I know I need to seek help but again I don’t have the time, and I put everything and everyone else before my own needs.
