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Meet your community champions!

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Hi everyone, We wanted to share with you the way that our wonderful Community Champions are here to support you. You may have noticed that a few of our Forums members are labelled ‘Community Champion’. Community Champions are volunteers within the Beyond Blue Forums who: have the time, skills and empathy to support other members regularly; help to welcome new members; are actively engaged members that help set the tone of our community. Our Community Champions are regular contributors to many conversations across the forums. They are a consistent and friendly voice that have committed to sharing their experience and expertise with this community. They are not health care professionals or clinicians. Like you, they have an experience with a mental health challenge or diagnosis – either for themselves or someone they care for. This forum is for people who understand what it feels like and have a lived and living experience of mental health challenges. Our Community Champions help everyone feel comfortable and confident by demonstrating what excellent peer support is all about. Click here to find out more about how you can become a Community Champion! This incredible team are excited to introduce themselves below, and we are sure you’ll see them around the forums in conversations important to you.

HELP..Am I posting in the right section?

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Welcome to those who are considering posting for the very first time, welcome. Thought I would repost part of the words that Chris B posted awhile ago, (2014) as I can hear that people are unsure if they are posting in the right section or worried that they are posting "the wrong thing". 1.A good title makes the difference Just like a headline in a newspaper, when scanning the dozens of threads to click into, it’s only natural that people will choose the ones that resonate with them most. A title that entices the reader, or asks a question, is likely to get a better result than something non-descriptive like “Depression” or “I don't know what to do”. If you think you’re not good at choosing titles, leave it till last. Spend time writing your post, then perhaps choose a sentence from what you’ve written as the title. 2.Join in threads that have already been posted We all have our own unique stories, but part of the reason for joining a forum like this one is because you know that you will have a lot in common with others who are posting. Before starting a new thread, have a look through the current topics being discussed and see if there’s a conversation you can join in with. It can be quite common to have a handful of very similar threads happening at any one time, with members seemingly unaware that there are others right there who are going through the same thing. Talking to other members on their threads is a great way of getting yourself known so that when you post a thread of your own, people may respond quicker because they recognize your name. 3.Choose the most appropriate section for your post Many people browse the forums looking for stories specifically to do with pregnancy and parenting, employment, grief, loss, separation etc. Going straight for the “Depression” section may seem like the easiest option, but this section is often the busiest, so your post is more likely to get lost among the threads. Making good use of the different forum sections not only helps keep the forum relevant, but you’re more likely to find others who are going through the same experiences as you. Also, if you're wanting to discuss issues of trauma, abuse, suicidal thoughts or self-harm, it's really important you post in the designated section to avoid triggering others who may not wish to read about these topics. Mostly..just come and chat, we are here for you. Our amazing wizards in the background will see your message ends up in the right spot. Sarah

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Anxiety

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Hi, I’m unable to talk to my friends, family or boyfriend about my anxiety as I feel I am burdening them and I don’t want to continually seem unhappy. I feel very lost and alone, I’ve always worried about every little thing in life even if there’s nothing to worry about. I’m really struggling at the moment to sleep and to be able to control my anxiety, it’s really taking over every aspect of my life... if anyone could help me in any way I would appreciate it greatly! Thank you x

When You Don't Want to Admit It

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Hello kindest of strangers, I haven't been on a forum for a very long time. I spent a lot of my teens and early twenties on forums, trying to find friends or a place to belong. I never really felt like I had a place. I am bad at communicating, I don't trust myself to be 'normal'. I don't keep a journal because I hate all the sentences that start with I. I this. I that. I struggle with self worth. I struggle to say there is anything wrong. I feel like a meandering mess and running out of time. I don't mean to talk to negatively. I know that that doesn't contribute to a healthy heart and mind. I guess that's why I am here. I know but I can't stop, I don't know how to be better. I get lost along the way. I have been blessed and lucky enough to share the last four years of my life with someone. I know that she loves me, but I also know that she hates me--or rather has come to be angry and fed up with me. I think that I am a burden, but in so thinking then become one. I don't blame her. I struggle with self-fulfilling prophecies. I struggle with a lot of things. I want to be better. I want to stop living in my head. I want to feel like I belong to this planet. I know those things are within my power, I just have to get there and not act as my own enemy.

Newbie reporting for support.

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Hi everyone, My name is Amy, I'm 33 and my husband is clinically depressed and suffers from anxiety. I'm hoping to find some non-judgmental support on these forums every now and again, and to learn to approach my own life in a healthy way by also helping others (sometimes things are much clearer from an outside perspective). In my opinion - and the opinion of some loved ones who have failed to be very supportive - the way my husband and our life currently are is not exactly the best. He isn't being a very loving spouse, or a big contributor to the comfort of our life in general. I work, I do most of the household, I seek most of the affection - he is very checked out at the moment. He struggles to want to participate in life. This all was trigger by him nearly dying from cancer a few years ago - he gave up the fight... and then he got better. And now he is lost. I've known him for a decade and I know it is the illness, not who he is. He was always extremely loving, supportive, caring, present, eager to earn what he has and contribute to our future. I know that's who he truly is. But that's not who he is right now. And I'm trying to find the best way to deal with that in a healthy way. Additionally he is resisting professional help. He has tried here and there - and sadly has been let down quite a bit. Giving up is not an option for me. So I'm hoping to pick up some insight, tools and strength from this community. Hope you are all feeling okay today, Amy

Making the first step for him

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My boyfriend of almost 4 years broke up with me a couple of nights ago, he said he just can’t do this, he can’t deal with my depression. It has broken my heart because we tried for so long, last year was the worst year I’ve ever experienced in terms of depression, I wasn’t getting out of bed most days, I didn’t have the energy to, I wasn’t eating, I had a complete lack of appetite and I was taking a lot of my feelings out on him. He stuck through all of that and was there for me, told me that he loved me and that we would get through this. I feel like I’ve just started to really put things into place to help with my depression and I think he saw that and that is why he chose to break up with me now. It just breaks my heart because that is where all of our relationship issues are from; my depression and how I react when I am like that. So I have decided that I’m not going to wait for it to get bad again. He said that he isn’t sure if we could ever try again even if I go and get help for my depression, but I’m trying to think that there is still hope there. So I’m taking the first step in helping myself so that maybe one day he will see that change and hopefully give me another chance. We were childhood sweethearts that found our way back to each other in our mid teens and I hope that we find our way back to one another again. He said that he wants to be friends and he still wants to be here for me, I think he just can’t take the pressure and stress of being my boyfriend while I am in those depressive states. The truth of the matter is that I was awful to him during those times. I would lose it over the smallest things and all this shit that had been in my head and heart and all my frustrations just burst out and I know that isn’t fair to him. As my mum said, when I am bad I am really bad and when I’m good it’s great but during those times it is like walking on egg shells, no one ever knows when it is going to go off and about what. I want him to be happy but more than anything I want me to be happy. Even if getting help for my depression doesn’t result in another chance, I think it is the right thing to do for me.

Stressed and worried

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Hi there, last night just trying to relax couldn’t sleep had my partner make me a cup of chamomile tea and I put headphones in at around 1:30am in the morning then all of a sudden my head goes cold and numb and spreads to my mouth and tongue! All the way to my stomach then my heart rate goes crazy! Ended up going to a dr and they checked all my vitals which were normal and had a ecg done. Told it was just a panic attack! today all day I’ve been feeling so ill and sick to my stomach and still have this horrible cold mouth and tongue sensations...I’m afraid it might happen again not sure if any one else has these symptoms? Just very stressed over it I keep thinking there is something seriously wrong with.

Long marriage gone wrong

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My name is Margaret and I separated from my husband in January this year after 44+ years together. Although we were no longer in love, there was companionship and I believed implicity in his honesty and integrity. His betrayal has come as a complete shock but even worse is the way that he has denegrated and humiliated me in the process. I really am struggling to know how to cope. My three adult children are remaining impartial. Although I have friends to talk to, it would be really helpful if there is someone out there who has experienced a break down after a lifetime together. Hoping to receive some advice or kind words from the Beyond Blue community.

Supporting an ex

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Hi there, My partner broke up with me 4 months ago after dating for 2.5 years. He has a teenage son to his ex wife. He runs a business and was always traveling interstate and overseas. About 1.5 years ago I became emotionally invested in another person after my partner was away a lot, shut me out of his life and asked me to pretend we weren’t together to allow his son to get used to the idea. When he found out he was understandably hurt and angry but we worked through it and or so I had thought. Since then I have devoted all my time and energy to rebuilding the trust and being there for him, being incredibly understanding of his work load and custody arrangements which means we had limited time together. Any argument we had, he would blame me for being invested in someone else as it was an easy way for him to punish us both. After all the guilt I relapsed with an eating disorder and depression and he tried to support me through it.Mid last year our our relationship was back on track. We had bought a house together, I was really close to his son and the future looked bright except for the fact he kept throwing himself into work too much and was never available at weekends. His dad was hen diagnosed with terminal cancer which really rocked him and we were caring for his dad and supporting his mother for the last 6 months. out of the blue my now ex broke up with me over the phone. He said that he had been planning it for a year and he had no interest in ever being in a relationship again as he said all women screw him over. We still speak peak daily and I am trying to help and support him as he has a breakdown. But he says he doesn’t want any help. He is carrying some serious pressure at work, running a business, caring for his dad, looking after his son part-time. Outside of that he says he is broken and does not ever want to see anyone! He says he’s antisocial and this is how he is going to be for the rest of his life. I’m still madly in love with him and want a future with him, but I also realise I need to support him by giving him the space and time he needs. I can tell he is very depressed and broken but the more time he spends alone, the longer he is convincing himself that all people are evil and isolation is better. He refuses to seek professional help or for us to even have couples counselling. This is really started to affect my mental health and I am at a loss of how to help him. Any advice would be greatly appreciated.

Inside gamer

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Hey everyone new here iv had social anxiety for most of my life iam 27 I always seem to be the one person at every social event standing in the corner hoping the event ends soon even going to the shop or puting fuel in my car is a task wondering if a... View more

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Hello, I'm 33 years old and live in au last 8 years. All my life I was always loner. Not by my choice but even though I tried to socialised I never made any real friends. People don't gravite to me so during my teen years I learned to enjoy my solitude and occupied myself with books etc. Also had a big hobby which is opera but even there where I was meeting people with same hobby never was able to create a friendship. I got married 5 years ago and have a beautiful 3 and half years old daughter. My husband was diagnosed with bi polar disorder and last 1 and half he had a manic episode which was the hardest time of my life. During his episode last 6 months I was going to bed with prayer that I don't wake up again and have to deal with it an other day. Our relationship got damaged and in September last year I had to call a police because our situation became unbearable for me. While my husband end up in jail my father who lives in Europe passed away but due to my situation I couldn't attend funeral. Now is my husband back home stabilized and wants to work on our marriage but I feel so demaged and enable to actually do anything. I am so isolated and have very difficult time to even leave the house to go to a shop or take my daughter to the park so we are all the time at home. I don't know what to do.. I am afraid talk to people but that isolation killing me inside. Also I want a good life for my daughter and be a good mother to her but I feel so useless and broken. Doctor offered me antidepressants but I am really worried that it will be just an other obstacle which I will have to later over come. My father was on medication last 2 years of his life and stop taking them 6months before he died and in that time his depression got worse than before. I hope what I wrote make sense, my apology for my gramma. Thank you for any thoughts

Hi. I'm Jax.

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Hi, I'm at a point in my life where I feel I want to opt out. I've seriously tried to help myself a lot over the years. Self help, online help and professional help. But I keep coming back to where I am now. I'm finding it really difficult to even write this here, as I don't really see it helping. Last night (through trying to self help and understand why I'm this way) discovered that I have an 'INFJ' personality type. It has made sense to me and has shed a little light as to why I'm like the way I am. I was so down last night that I was going to end it. In the end I don't think it matters though. I feel like I'm the only one in this world who understands myself and the whole world tells me I'm wrong, I'm faulty and broken. This upsets me. I feel as though I'll never connect with anyone. I want to connect and have friends, a normal life (whatever that is) but I dont think I ever will. So I'm struggling to find a genuine reason to stay.

Meet your community champions! replies: 14

HELP..Am I posting in the right section? replies: 10

Anxiety replies: 2

When You Don't Want to Admit It replies: 1

Newbie reporting for support. replies: 3

Making the first step for him replies: 1

Stressed and worried replies: 2

Long marriage gone wrong replies: 1

Supporting an ex replies: 3

Inside gamer replies: 2

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Hi. I'm Jax. replies: 1