Hi Brisbane_women
In regard to the medication, if you feel it's not serving you in any way, I'd definitely question it. If it happens to be helping in some way, then the question could be 'Can I manage new ways of thinking, feeling and behaving (through greater levels of self understanding and self mastery) that are going to lead me to develop certain abilities in time without the medication?'.
In relation to seeing another psychiatrist, it's definitely possible for another psychiatrist to acknowledge what you experience as not being ADHD related, if this is the case. This will most likely come down to another assessment. I know they're not cheap in a lot of cases.
From a less clinical perspective, I can't help but wonder about your nature. While we all have physical/chemical influences that shape us on top of mental influences that impact us in a variety of ways, there's also the natural aspect of who we are. Some folk who feel or sense a lot of energy in motion (e-motion) in and around themself can be 'venters' with the need to vent that emotion, so as to manage it. Some will cry it out, talk it out, sigh it out, work it out (at the gym, for example) etc where as others will try and manage the intense energy in motion in other ways. Some will calm it down through controlled breathing or certain meditations, others will master the volume dial or the off switch when it comes to emotions or they may choose to sit with it and get a better feel in regard to what a particular emotion's all about. Some may even come to manage their emotions partly through managing their imagination and how what's in their imagination can lead them to feel. Bit of constructive daydreaming.
Not sure whether you struggle with inner dialogue but mastering inner dialogue can be another factor for some. It's one thing to have our inner critic chatting away up there in our head or our inner stresser or inner pessimist or inner whatever, it's a whole other experience when there's like a group conference going on, becoming like some intense inner tornado of overwhelming chatter. Can sound a little like
'You're absolutely hopeless. You'll never be able to master your emotions' (inner critic)
'But I could if I find the right help'
'That's just too stressful' (inner stresser)
'But it could change everything'
'Nothing's ever going to change' (inner pessimist)
Cue the sage in us 'What if it does change everything. There's only one way to find out'.
