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[not_dead_yet]

Hey! I feel like it has been a while since i last posted. I come say that it has nearly been a year since i first made an account. I have talked things through and my parents won't know if i go to school councelling so i went for the first time a few weeks ago. Tomorrow i will be going for the third time! I can't say that things have been much better- if anything my home and school situation have gotten worse. I feel like i am in limbo- not happy- not sad. But i am in year 12 now and i can see hope that i can be free soon. I am feeling increasingly tired but hopefully someone has just given me the flu. I am about 6 months clean and i hope to continue that way! I hope everyone a good night! 

[Croix]

Dear Not_Dead_Yet~

Welcome back. I'm pleased you are gong to see school counceling, it has potential to make to feel better in yourself and also help with the urges to self-harm. Incidentally going clean for six months shows a fair bit about your character and strength, it is a very hard thing to do.

If the counceling has not made much difference yet perhaps you should say so to the councilor and ask them what sort of plan they have to help you, after all if they don't know you then they may be just guessing, you need help exactly tailored to you. It may be a matter of negotiation and telling them more about yourself and your  circumstances.

BTW did you tell them about the SH? There are techniques you can be taught to make that part of you life easier.

It's good you can see the end of school as being the start of freedom, everyone needs hope, 

Croix