Help for out of control anger

[Lilly18]

Hit me with ANYTHING please that has helped you with being angry.
My anger is not ok and its not 'normal'
I have ruined furniture, I'm without a dining table + 8 chairs, holes in walls, chests of draws, dishes, ipads you name it. I could elaborate but probly best I don't.
I have seen psychologists, on antidepressant (have tried quite a few) and they honestly don't help. I can take an anit anxiety tablet but I don't like to feel sleepy especially when the kids are non stop.

I think i know what sets me off, but there must be more behind it for it to be so bad.
I'm at the end of the tether and I have said that so many times in lost count. Practicing Mindfullness, the deep breathing etc just doesnt work for me. I just can't sit down during the day to do a meditation app because I need a clean house before I could do something like that or maybe I just don't want to be still in my own head.

What can I do? I'm at the end of my tether, I have lost count how many times iv said that
I need help and don't know where or how

Sorry this was only going to be short but eh

[Sophie_M]

Hi Lilly18,

Thank you so much for sharing your journey with us here. It was very brave of you to do so and we are so sorry to hear how much you are struggling right now. Please know that you've come to a safe space to talk about these feelings, and our friendly online community is here to offer you as much support and advice as you need.

If you feel up to it, we'd also encourage you to reach out to our Beyond Blue Support Service. They are available 24/7 by phone on 1300 22 4636 or on Webchat 3pm-12am AEST on our website: www.beyondblue.org.au/getsupport One of our friendly counsellors will be able to give you support as well as advice and referrals to help you.
 You might also find some helpful advice in the following thread:

“Helpful strategies for anger”

Please check in and let us know how you are going whenever you feel up to it.

[Lilly18]

Thank you
I have chatted/text with beyond blue and recently lifeline. To be honest I don't find it helpful. They repeat what I say - active listening, then ask/say something that feels useless to me and that's that. That's how it feels for me, I'm sure it has helped others.
Just feel so stuck, I have done a search on here for anger issues etc I will look at the one you mentioned in case I missed it