Hey Nes
goodness that post is just wonderful and thank you for posting it.
It unfortunately is true the suffering has always taught me something when I came through it. It has taught me how to care for others in a healthier way but it starts with me first and them second.
when I am feeling good I have noticed that I have really wonderful conversations with people like yourself and that is all I need somedays.
I have found so much intellect, caring, genuine concern for a fellow humans and the depth is amazing.
when I was sent away for a two week holiday I called it I never forget what I saw and felt off course even though I was as dark as charcoal on myself.
the patients there appeared to me to be stuck on something while of course I did not find our what exactly their stories where. some I did.
I wake up 14 years later saying ok heres another day lets check out whats up with the day,
I would not attempt answer anything for anyone because I know the value of sorting things our for myself but maybe thats just my thing, Heaven knows how many times people have said to me you are so strong. Little did they know what was wiggling in side of me. ha,,,,Its so cool I laugh at myself now so I guess thats all I wish for others is to laugh at your attempts to hurt yourself because if they are still here I would be straight up and Ask
'So you still wake up everyday?
"What's that about then, someone does not want you yet so up you get do your stuff then.
If you can not move you can still speak or write something.
Body tired brain dead ok stay till ready then move thing is you still not dead.
How do I know this to be true because in all that suffering I had my horror was the heart by pass and the next day nursey comes in and say we are getting you up and about today.Well shoot me now is all I thought.
But I did it and I wake up everyday some days dead boring others dead lonely others just brilliant I call it life.
Cheers Nes
Giggles
