Hi stormcloudz
Well he did the medical for another job back where he lives. He failed the drug test again. Its a legal drug on prescription which is obviously staying in his system for a long time. But I do wonder if he is still taking it. He said it doesnt matter that he didnt get the job, but I really dont believe that. I suspect he might be feeling a bit of a failure and embarrassed, so he is being stoic by saying it doesnt matter. Again he implied that I would be better off with someone who is "normal". Again, I said I am not going anywhere, and I am there for him. I explained that he has been helpful to me even if he doesnt realise it. And again, I gently suggested that moving over here would be very beneficial to him. I am trying to give him some space and not be too overbearing. But I have also been honest with him about what I think and how I feel about him.
I also have issues that I have to address in my personal life. I have anxiety but nowhere near as sever as his depression. The difference though is I have my job, family and friends around me. He is on his own. It is a recipe for doom and gloom. He is an intelligent man and surely he can see that difference of when he was over here.
I am getting closer to sorting out my issues, but I do feel really unsure about what will become of this relationship. I go from being hopeful to wondering if things will ever work out. I can lead a horse to water......as they say.
Thank you for listening to me.
