Dear Memphis Lee
Welcome to the forum and thanks for your story.
It's a great analogy for losing your ball but there is a better one for retrieving the ball. The wall is the barrier and you need to remove it rather than sitting precariously on top of the wall trying to reach the ball with no assistance.
Assistance comes in many forms. You can talk here on Beyond Blue and we will support you as much as possible. We cannot retrieve the ball though. For that you need a more specialized service.
This starts with making an appointment with your GP and being completely open about your difficulties. You should make a long appointment. This equates to moving closer to the wall and taking a good look at it. Your GP may suggest a number of actions such as medication and/or counselling. It's also possible you have a physical illness which is causing you distress. So first step, go and see your GP. If you find getting started difficult then print your post above. It will give your doctor somewhere to start.
Please tell us a bit more about yourself, what you like doing, do you work, do you have family and friends nearby to support you. Love to talk more.
Mary
