Permit me to list what is wrong or things i am struggling with

[HamSolo01]

I always ramble when I post so I should do list form :

- Most of my time is spent at home now. I don't work as I was working full time and couldn't handle the job as it was not stimulating me enough

- I have so many regrets about my 20s and not having done anything enough or having been too repressed or shy (I am 28 now)

- I am tired most of the time due to not sleeping right, always waking up early and thinking about things

- I let an adult know too much about me when i was young, an adult i wasn't related to and who was in the religious community I was in.

- I have never gotten over some opportunities that I either didn't apply for, failed at getting or was too scared about (meaning fear directed me)

- I feel every day is a struggle to get up and i am so bored by things all the time (i always jump songs i am playing for example coz i get bored of hearing it)

- I am fearful of losing my youth because i haven't done anything with it

- I'm so over trying to impress people that I think i may now not even care if I do things to myself I should not

There

[Iwanttobenormal]

Hi HamSolo01.

Great idea putting your ramblings in point format:

- you have them sorted as you type them out, and

- easy for readers to read.

We are all guilty of looking back over our lives and having regrets. And its worse when we are unwell and not in control of our thoughts. The mind races with thoughts of 'if only I did this'.

But we can't change the past, no matter how much we wish we could. Learn from past experiences and do things differently next time. We make mistakes and miss opportunities for a reason- so we learn from them and dont repeat them.

I understand what you are saying. Try not to be too hard on yourself and take care.

[HamSolo01]

Going to list some more

- I am tired of being told I have potential and yet I am not experiencing it in life at all

- I feel a deep sense of loss for majority of my 20s (i can pick things out which were good, but there just is enough of it to call my life fulfilling but then I dunno if this is just my disposition at this current time)

- i feel sad and don't really care

[HamSolo01]

thank you Iwantobenormal for your words of support

I think i need to write about this at length

[Karen0901]

I think this must be a common thing. That people expect more from life than it actually delivers. I was/am guilty of it. The age you are now is when it starts and was a period when I felt it strongly.

What I have learnt is that life is not a checklist. It's very possible that different choices would not have been what you now imagine them to be. Others opinions really don't matter either. They have their life path, you have yours. They will not have checked everything off their list either.

I also had getting older as this big horrible thing in my mind. Your 30's are not much different to your 20's to be honest. Our society places to much importance on youth.

What potential do you have? What goals do you feel you missed out on? Do them now. It's not too late. You are still young. You are bored because you have no direction and life seems pointless. So make it into something you want to look back on without regrets. I realize it's easy for me to say this but another to actually do it. I struggle as well. Start small and go from there or at least don't give up on the potential of achievement. At the end of the day you can say you tried instead of regreting what you didn't do.