Hi Lulu
Matters of the heart (esp involving heartache) are never a small problem. While you are obviously grateful for all you have in life, there is nothing wrong with needing more. The ability to feel when there's something missing is an ability.
While depression really set in for me around the age of 20 (to the point where I could seriously feel it), I'd say my journey into that particular depression began around 16. That's when I began to feel a little lost and sad. It's such a tough age, when we're typically most in need of guidance and support.
Over the years, I've worked out one of the main triggers for depression for me involves depressing low level of energy. If healthy levels are what lead us to feel connected to life, without those healthy levels we can feel so disconnected.
Some energy based factors
- Some of the ways we may have been led to think/mentally process things. Some of the beliefs put into our head can bring us down and stop us energetically rising to become more of who we naturally are
- Exhausting mental and physical energy with no recharge periods. The 6 week school holidays or time off work are so important
- Not enough energy being put in (through food, exercise, good sleep, hydration etc). Inspiration is also energising. A lack of it can be a problem. Glad you're able to feel inspiring energy in music
- Healthy levels of chemical energy such as that relating to B12, iron etc. Depressing low levels become an issue. Blood tests can help identify or eliminate some chemical energy issues. Btw, when there's a deficiency, this can lead to some dark thoughts. Eg: if we don't have the energy needed to get off the couch and be active (stemming from an iron deficiency), we can start thinking 'I'm so lazy. Why can't I function like everyone else? I'm hopeless' etc
Lots more reasons.
Lulu, feelings are so important. They tell us when something's wrong or something's right. While it's easy to feel when something's wrong, not always easy to get a feel for what it is.
