Hi Heather,
I hope that I can extend a gentle and caring welcome to you here 🙂 I wanted to respond because of the title of your thread...I feel many people here, including me, can relate to being a “high functioning”’depressive.
You have clearly been hurting and struggling for some time, which must be very draining. It sounds like you’re struggling to form meaningful connections with people too, which I feel would be very painful and lonely....
I don’t think you’re a “boring and lazy person” as you put it but I see you as someone who is in a lot of pain, feeling lonely and perhaps feeling misunderstood...I’m so glad you reached out here.
If I can make a gentle suggestion, how about making an extended appointment with your GP to assess your mental health? I think it’s great that you completed the online BeyondBlue test so maybe you can bring that along to show your GP....it’s just that I feel a GP is often a good starting point...
You’re most welcome to write some more; it would be lovely to hear how you’re doing since your first post. Some people find it helpful to share their feelings here. That said, there’s no pressure, only if you feel comfortable writing here...
Warmth and kindness,
Pepper
