I have lost interest in everything

[Alai]

I have depression for a long time. My interest in things are slowly reduced.

I used to have lots of hobbies and I can enjoy doing them repeatedly without losing interest. I love game, sport, movies, travel, photography food, comics, novel, gadgets, programming, physics etc.

But I slowly losing interest in them through past decade and they have accelerate recent years. Now my only weekend activity is figure out what I want to do and always fail. I force myself to read, watch movie, play game but often give up after mins in. This have been happening since few years ago and it have given me anxiety as I feel like my time is wasted. I'm not young anymore. I feel like I'm a fully paralyzed patient who only able to hear the clock ticking until I die.

I also slowly distant myself from my closed one. First are friends, then relatives and now my immediate families. I just feel exhausted to interact with them.

[Sophie_M]

Hi Alai,

Welcome to the forums and thank you for sharing your story with us here. It takes a lot of courage to reach out for support, you also never know who will read this post and feel less alone in their own experiences. 

We are sorry to hear that you are slowly losing interest in the things you once enjoyed, We understand that this feeling must be very overwhelming, especially if you dont have the full support of your family and friends. Please know that you've come to a safe, non-judgemental space to talk things through and our community is here to offer as much support, advice and conversation as you need.

If you would like to talk to someone about this, we would recommend that you get in contact with the Beyond Blue Support Service. They are available 24/7 by phone on 1300 22 4636 or on Webchat 1pm-12am AEST on our website: www.beyondblue.org.au/getsupport  One of our friendly counsellors will be able to talk through these feelings with you and can offer support, advice and referrals.

We also strongly urge that in overwhelming moments you get in touch with our friends at Lifeline (13 11 14) or the Suicide Call Back Service (1300 659 467).

Thank you again for being brave and for sharing here today. Please feel free to check back in and update the community on how you are going if you feel comfortable doing so. 

[amberlite]

Hello Alai, I just read how hard things are for you right now and I understand, I have been in the hole and I have felt the heaviness. Your experience is universal and I am so glad that you have come online to post about your thoughts. It does help to post and to receive and give support. Well done on joining the BB community and I hope to read more of your posts. Bye A