I feel sorry for my husband and kids

[jenk]

Hi my name is Jenny, I am feeling like I have severe depression. I can feel fine in the morning and begin to cry and gradually get worse, until I feel like I cant deal with life anymore. I see things negatively, no matter what is said and done I either feel alienated or a waste of space. Then I feel so bad for my husband who listens to my crazy thoughts and I always say the same thing, like how I feel. I cant believe he puts up with me. Anyway that starts the cycle and I feel I just go around and around like a broken record. I am so sick of myself, And I am going to my GP, but thats even a effort, like an anxiety episode, cause Ive got to confess my craziest thoughts. Does that familiar to anybody?

[pipsy]

Hi Jenny. I fully understand where you're coming from. Depression is a debilitating illness because it can't be seen by anyone. Trying to explain it is like speaking a foreign language. The problem being, no-one has any idea what the sufferer is feeling because, as I said, it is unseen. Are you taking AD's for your depression, are you seeing a therapist, counsellor, Dr. I suggest it might be a help if you make an appointment with your Dr and ask for a referral to a therapist or counsellor. The fact you reached out on the forums took a lot of courage. You needn't feel alone. Everyone on these forums has suffered or is suffering depression, bipolar, anxiety etc. At the bottom of the page is a list of signs of depression and the help available. If you download this list and ask your hubby to read it, this might give him some insight of what you're trying to tell him. Perhaps, once he reads it and has some idea of how you're suffering, he might be willing to accompany you to the Dr, for support. You could also ring lifeline, or BB's 24/7 helpline for support and someone who will listen and guide you. The thoughts you're having are not crazy, I think the fact you feel so alone makes you think your thoughts are crazy. You needn't feel alone here. You have much support from everybody here.

Lynda.

[blondguy]

Hello Jenny

A warm welcome to the forums and thankyou for posting too!

Your pain sounds very familiar to me and it is a horrible place to be in. If..you have depression and/or anxiety or even not you are not on your own. You have great courage to post Jenny. I am Paul and have had anxiety/depression and the dark feelings for many years.

* Firstly....you dont have any crazy thoughts....You are actually very strong to have to strength to reach out.

* Congrats on booking in to see your Gp...they have a greater understanding of depression than ever before

* If you scroll to bottom of the page under 'The Facts' you will find the Anxiety/Depression check list. It may help

* Crying is a good way to 'vent'...a sign of strength. Some people bottle it up and end up much worse...

* If you can..see your Gp as a gift....She/he will able to help...(I use my Gp for a quarterly tune up)

* The Depression is no different to a physical illness....Diabetes..a broken limb..a virus..infection...you have nothing to lose and everything to gain Jenny...

* You have already started your healing process by booking your Gp. Well done to you

* Your husband like many people dont understand what you are going through and thats fine. Because he cant see your depression doesnt mean its not there....If you had a leg in plaster he would understand and provide you with the support you deserve right now. There is no difference with having Depression

* I do hope you can tell your Gp some of your thoughts...she will care for you...and yes..even if you have a cry

There are many wonderful people here that can be here for you Jenny and are also in a dark place too...It would be great if you could post back 🙂 (if you wish of course)

My Kindest Thoughts for You and well done on being so self aware

Paul x