I don’t want to reach out anymore

[sloanekirby]

Everyone always says to ask for help and to talk about your feelings but I feel like I can’t do that anymore. I feel so alone and it never ends. All I do is distract myself from it for a while

Im scared of talking about how I feel because no one ever knows what’s to say or how to help

Ive been to therapy and all it is is new ways to distract myself

I don’t have any reason other than my family to live

[Croix]

Dear Sloanekirby~

If you have been feeling bad for a while it is very easy to become discouraged and think there is no light at the end of the tunnel. As well if you have tried talking and been met with incomprehension or worse, offered logical fixes that are quite irrelevant, then you might think nobody can understand, and nobody has any remedies.

That is why it is good to come here. I've PTSD, anxiety and bouts of depression and found that there were others here in the same boat. I can almost talk shorthand, and be understood because of common experience. I can also talk with people who have found the means to improve.

Unfortunately treating mental illness is not as exact a science as it should be. I went for many years without the correct treatment, and tried a long list of medications, and some therapies, before finding a regime that suited me and was reasonably effective. I'm now mostly stabilized and lead a pretty good life.

So why not start here by saying how you feel? I'd guarantee there will be others who will know exactly what you mean. Just having others relate can be a help.

Distraction is no bad thing. I've used books, movies, exercise, being with my partner and other things to combat my illness for a long time and they definitely all have their place. Regular things to enjoy or look forward to are good, as is anything that takes the mind out of ordinary unpleasant life for a while.

You said you have a family, and wanting to live for them shows something about yourself, a caring person. I guess the aim is to make you happy enough to want to just live for you. I got there, though to start with I'd thought that simply impossible.

So please come back and talk more

Croix

[startingnew]

hi and welcome

i dont have much to add to what Croix has said but wanted to welcome you and help you along your journey.

i think talking about how your feeling is a good starting point and maybe a little bit more about your situation so we cna get a better understanding of what is really going on for you

[Gilip]

Hi there please don’t ever feel scared to talk on here we are all in the same boat and promise to really listen. It really helps to know that there are always people who care and don’t just go through the motions. I have just started on meds again and they are taking a while to kick in but they have worked before so am trusting they will work as well again. We are here for you x x

[geoff]

hi Sloanekirby, please let me welcome you to the site and understand how you are feeling, I am really sorry for this.

You can distract yourself, that's what we suggest, but please realise that you are able to talk to people who have struggled from their own depression for many years, people who know what you are saying and how you are feeling.

We may have answers, or we may have suggestions or we may have advice from what you have said because we know and understand the situation you are in, so please remember that you can trust us. Geoff.

[mable]

I feel the same as you I am sick and tired of trying. My children took time from their jobs to come to therapy today only to have it cancelled at the last minute. If she only new how anxious I have been. The thought of having my family in a session. I think I will do my own therapy from know on.

[startingnew]

hi Mable and welcome to BB

it sounds like things are pretty tough for you atm too, i see this is your first post, would you consider creating your own thread so we can support you through your tough times as well?