I don't know who I am

[NAYNAY3451]

My doctor has diagnosed me with depression. I originally went there because I wasn't sleeping, but somehow I let everything out to him and someone finally heard what I've been going through. 

From an outsiders perspective my life looks great but I've never felt so alone as I do now. Currently my partner is working away, every time we speak i cry or get mad at him for no reason. I sit in all day wishing I had friends texting me, needing me, wanting to see me. But I don't. I wish I could go and join a club or activity where I could meet new people but my anxiety stops me from doing anything. I just want a normal life but every day I am battling with my thoughts, getting anxious about things that don't even matter and thinking I am wasting my youth. I have recently had a lot of panic attacks too.  

Does anyone else here feel the same? I feel like the only person in the world right now. 

[blondguy]

Hi Nannay

Welcome to the BB Forums and thankyou for posting

Paul here......There are many wonderful people that suffer from depression and anxiety and we can be here for you if you wish

When were you diagnosed with depression? It is very common Nay same as the anxiety..many people have it.

I am glad you had the courage to reach out to us. With your partner working away it wouldnt feel good for you right now. When you get mad at him...you dont mean too....its the depression and anxiety talking...The old you is still there...your mind is tired right now..so you will cry which is fine...by crying you are venting instead of bottling up all your feelings.

I have had anxiety for 25 years and it does lessen in severity over time with practice Nay and with seeing a GP or therapist as well. They can be a huge help if you can have a regular appointment. I have had depression for about 10 years and can be dreadful. I see my GP for support even now.

Sometimes it can help by treating the anxiety as a physical problem..The same as diabetes..a virus...an infection...When we have those we cant 'battle' these awful symptoms. Same as with anxiety...battling it wont help you..it only feeds the fire so to speak.

Having some type of support group (including your doc) is a great start. Even 2 or 3 people can be a huge start

Do you have a dog/cat ? They can be a great help to your health..even a little help is still help

You are not on your own Nay..

I think I have 2 good friends and thats it. It can be very isolating. Do you have 1 friend you can gasbag too?

We are here for you Nay 🙂 I do wish you can get back and say hi. Maybe let us know of your interests and family

Be 'Gentle' to Yourself

Paul