Hi, for about 4 or 5 years now I've been experiencing problems in which I feel have I completely changed from what I believed to be an intelligent, active and healthy teenager into an unmotivated, run down mess. I thought keeping this bottled up and not letting anyone else have to worry about it would be fine, but I feel myself deteriorating and need to let it out.
I would have been in Year 11 in 2011 when I believe it started. Before then I was doing exceedingly well in my schooling to the point where teachers considered me skipping a year level, I was engaging in high level soccer, futsal, and basketball (and enjoying it), whilst in spare time I would go out with friends and enjoy their company and vice versa. In 2011 our family moved out from an area which I was able to ride my bike to school, to a quite isolated area (which I'm currently at) in which the only methods of transportation was either by car or by bus which would normally take an hour or so of the day to get to school. I live in a small house with 7 (grandfather, parents, 2 sister, brother and I) people and I sleep in the same room as my brother.
During 2011 my sleeping patterns and overall sleep quality has gone due to my brother being on noisy electronics and watching movies in his bed whilst I tried to sleep, and despite efforts to stop it I haven't been able to revert since. I'd catch the bus to school and struggle to focus during class and even fall asleep, causing me to fall behind almost to the point where I was failing basic subjects. I dropped out of all my sports that year because I felt no passion in them anymore and my skill dropped. What was worse is that my parents noticed this and they didn't seem to care or make any attempt to help me out which further reduced my motivation to do well. I ended up scraping through VCE and in 2013 I worked 2 which totalled to 50 hours a week, so I could simply buy a car to reduce travel times so I could start studying. Travel times basically meant that I had to choose out of work or a social life.
So I now have my car, and I am able to travel to uni, however cost of living at home and save at the same time whilst passing my course means I am working non-stop just to make ends meet.. and I can't even focus on my work, I have no friends, I'm constantly getting sick, I can't have a conversation with someone because I haven't gone out and experienced or felt anything for so long, and I feel alone and unsupported by my family.
