Do I Deserve Happiness?

[ZA123]

Hi there,

i broke up with my gf about a month ago, everything was ok but recently she told me she hated me and I am the worst person on the planet because I had female friends.

She continued to hate me and say how bad I was, I did my best to respond with kindness and love however today I lost control and I said something truly awful and brought up a traumatic moment from her past. I felt so awful after it and I can’t see myself the same. She then sent me a text saying I deserve a lifetime of pain and misery and hopes I rot in hell.

Do I really deserve that? Was my mistake so bad that I deserve pain for the rest of my life? I wish I could take it back and I hate myself so much. I feel like a monster, I never meant to hurt her but I did.

I feel like I deserve a lifetime of suffering and even worse.

[white knight]

Hi, welcome

We imperfect humans rarely deserve a lifetime of punishment, and no one deserves it for a vocal mistake. You should stop taking others words literally.

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[ZA123]

I don’t know.

I hurt her so badly and I am so sorry for it. I hate who I am I really do.

I never want to hurt anyone let alone the one I love. I feel pathetic and evil and worthless for losing control.

[quirkywords]

ZA123

welcome to the forum.As Tony wrote we are human and humans often say words they regretblater and did not mean.

i am guessing your ex gf may be regretting what she said to you in a moment of anger.

Sure you made a mistake and lost co troll but everyone has at one to time..

People who are pathetic and mean do not care at all if the hurt another so your concern and regret for what you said shows how caring you are.

Please think about that.

Quirky

You are a very mi d Perl’s. Because you worry about how your words may have hurt another.