Depression getting worse

[saturnzoon]

The past 3 weeks I've noticed my depression has gotten worse and now at breaking point, i think i need to be hospitalized but have a 11yr old son, 24 & 25 yr old boys, i know the older 2 can look afer themselves but youngest one cant he has Autism and does not get along with his father as where not together. I can not work out why it's gotten this badand don't know what to do to help it. I've agraphobia so can't leave the house, i have tried and all my family live interstate so apart from my sons i have no one and no friends as i also have social anxiety, i feel so alone, my daughter who i was very close to moved to newcastle 2 years ago from being treated like a slavecfrom her father and now she doesn't want me talking about my depression and anxiety. i dont have an appointment with my physicists until next year. Does anyone have somethings that i could try please and meditation doesn't work either.I believe my hardest thing is the, lonliness

[Peppermintbach]

Hi saturnzoon,

You must be feeling completely overwhelmed, emotionally drained and utterly exhausted. Emotionally shattered might be one way of putting how you currently feel...

It must be so difficult, and as you said, very lonely to have so little support. You sound like you miss the closeness that you had with your daughter before she moved further away. That distance as well as her discomfort around certain topics must be hard for you...

It definitely sounds you like you need and deserve more help and respite. If you’re thinking of hospital, I wonder if there’s a way to get your youngest son into some form of temporary care.

I don’t know too much about it but I have read posts where other BeyondBlue members have had their children in temporary care while they were receiving help for their mental health in hospital.

I personally don’t know the contacts for it but maybe if you call the BeyondBlue helpline 1300 22 4636 someone can advise you on it. Just a suggestion as it does seem like your sorely need respite, and definitely deserve help.

Also, if you feel like talking again, you’re always welcome to write some more. Naturally, that is only if you want to of course.

Caring thoughts,

Pepper

[Sadwombat]

Dear Saturnzoon,

maybe your two older sons could take care of their brother while your in hospital. They are certainly old enough for that responasability at least in the short term.

I am sorry your depression is getting worse (I can relate). Are you seeing a psychologist?

It must be very hard when your daughter isn't being supportive.

hugs