Depression and work and relatives

[Hmin]

hi, i am new, I have been in my job for well over 20 years but my bosses are coming down heavily on me because as many will know job environments have changed over time where bosses are now more focused on rules, red tape and bureaucracy than actual results. The bosses say my work is "wonderful" but are critical because I don't appear "UP" and I am "late" (it is the public service it 's supposed to about flexi time) all that aside the atmosphere now is very tense and I feel paranoia and more depressed than I already have been for many many years ....(I am 51 years old) I have problem relatives also. I wonder whether I should try harder to get the sack or resign....I know I should see a doctor..but I have before and taken anti-depressants that didn't work. If i go back to a doctor to try and help me get out of work it will involve many trips will become costly? I can't afford it I don't know what to should I just run away?

[blondguy]

Hello Hmin

You are very strong by posting on the forums and a huge welcome to you!

I'm Paul...(in my 50's) and have been on Beyond Blue for 2 years after being made redundant in the private sector.

You have also worked well for over 20 years in your career. That is a huge achievement 🙂

I understand your situation as I have had clinical depression for over 21 years (under management) and have managed to work through most of it through the help & support of my legend of a GP.

Can I ask if you enjoy what you do for a living?

Sometimes having super regular appointments with a GP or a counselor can work wonders for us. If you dont think that will work for you thats okay too.

There are many doctors that bulk bill nowadays....Thats always a good move too

There are many gentle people on the forums that can be here for you too Hmin. Your privacy is also paramount here as well

I hope you can stick around the forums if you choose to do so 🙂

My kind thoughts

Paul