Crying for no reason

[retnuhh]

Lately, I haven't been feeling anything. My hobbies, my favorite TV shows, music, nothing makes me feel anymore. It's mind numbing and honestly, I really don't feel like myself. But, last week, I came back from school, sat down at my desk, and bawled my eyes out. I was crying for absolutely no reason what so ever, but after you cry aren't you supposed to feel relief? Because all I felt was an overwhelming sense of guilt and regret. Then, this morning, I woke up feeling nothing. I went to go brush my teeth but all of a sudden I felt... everything?? Like, all the emotions that were deprived of me over the past weeks were all coming back in a sudden burst. But then I felt nothing, again. So, I sat down in the same chair and burst into tears, for no reason again.

Now, I'm in my bed, really confused about what's happening to me. I was supposed to go to school today but I lied to my mother that I didn't want to go because I had assignments to work on (which is half true) but she got really angry at me and started to argue. But, I just let it happen?? Normally, I would argue back but I just felt really guilty. She finally agreed to let me stay home, so now I'm here. I actually started crying while I was writing this (for no reason, I might add) so now I'm really seeking for help. What is happening to me?

[white knight]

Hi retnuhh, welcome

I'm glad you wrote to us. While we cant diagnose a medical condition we can, through experience and knowledge, give some ideas and support that might fill in some gaps.

Emotional roller coasters can come and go in your maturing years. I recall around 19yo the sudden realization about illness for example, that our lives are will not be illness free whereas before then I felt I was going to live forever. Suddenly I was no longer invincible.

There are many mental illnesses that have crying as a symptom. Dysthymia, one of my illnesses is a low mood constant depression that results in crying a lot. I used to cry for no reason like you do. Mania can give extreme highs and when the lows come they are really low so crying is common. Melancholy depression, clinical depression etc.

Of course the first step in all of this is to visit your GP. That initial assessment can open up all of the details of your recent life. Sometimes the obvious escapes us in that triggering our mood and we don't even know it. For example the week before this happened if a friend broke off with you or an exam came along. Boom! the trigger comes and you might not associate that with your emotional downer.

Your mum would not have any idea these things/changes are occurring, as you don't. So its hard for her to make sense of it all hence her arguing with you. The trick here is to reconnect with her, be totally honest with her about everything and ask to see a doctor. If everything checks out ok then its just a phase your mind is going through. If there is something more serious then the road to recovery has commenced, either way its better than guessing.

It is tremendous that you are brave enough to post here for advice. That tells me you are mature for your age and are willing to tackle things head on. We are always here to help out, its anonymous and we have a vast community in which to tap into. There are also many threads here that will suit your situation. For example the following thread might interest you. Use google and thanks for connecting

Topic: crying, a gauge to our mental strength- beyondblue

Topic: know your limits- beyondblue

all the best. Repost anytime

Tony WK

[Neil_1]

Hi there retnuhh,

I too, like Tony would like to welcome you to Beyond Blue, as well as to say that is a huge thing for you to come here and share. Sometimes unloading like this can be a beneficial experience and hopefully after you’ve received responses, it might go a long way to providing you with some good resources.

I really want to back up all the things Tony responded to you about … very good advice and if you’ve got the opportunity to go and see a professional (GP) about this, I think this would be a positive step.

If you were to open up to your Mum, do you think she’d be supportive and helpful? I only ask this, cause there’s been other situations where a person would not feel comfortable about speaking to either of their parents.

Just in finishing, I do hope that over the last little while, you’re feeling even just a little bit better?

And please, do write back as often as you would like to.

Kind regards,

Neil