Hi sandy321,
Welcome to the forums. It is a safe space to have a chat and get some support. I'm sorry that you are having a spiral into depression and that you have been through a major change in your life which has caused this. If you want to talk about it some more, we are here to listen and help where we can. If you're not ready to disclose more, that's okay too.
Spiral is definitely the right word for it. I found myself in a similar situation about two and a half years ago. Since then, I have been travelling a road of discovery in an attempt to find ways to feel better and lift myself out of depression. Talking here, finding coping techniques, gathering information, journalling, connecting with others. It all helped. If you look through some of the past threads on BB, you will find lots of useful advice that you can put into practise. There's also your GP who can recommend some counselling for you.
I hope you can begin to start feeling a bit better. Be kind to yourself and take care of yourself as best you can in the situation. Do you have people around you who can help or you are able to talk to about it?
Come back and chat if you want to, or feel able to.
WF
