Hi all, I'm in a terrible way...I am 51, have no job, partner, friends,
money, anhedonia, peyrones disease, bipolar, extreme loneliness & copd.
I want to feel the connections with others again but don't know where to
start. I haven't worked for 6 yea...
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Hi all, I'm in a terrible way...I am 51, have no job, partner, friends,
money, anhedonia, peyrones disease, bipolar, extreme loneliness & copd.
I want to feel the connections with others again but don't know where to
start. I haven't worked for 6 years due to mental health reasons however
I feel guilty & think it's out of laziness. I busted My partner of 7
years having threesoms with 2 people I used to be friends with. I used
to see her everyday & was totally invested in her that now, I have zero
social life & with the peyrones disease I can't really meet any women!!
I've been used to a life of great success but ever since divorcing my
narcissistic ex wife in 2013 my life has just spiralled downwards at a
great pace. Oh, peyrones disease is a build up of scar tissue in your
penis that creates a bend when erect making intercourse impossible. It
also shrinks your overall size. It's one of the most soul crushing
things for anyone to go through. I am hopefully having an operation
early next year but the surgery is 34k without p/health (which I now
have and am on the 12 month waiting list) but even then, after the
operation, I won't just have chicks knocking on my front door for dates
so I'm scared I'll go through all the pain of recovery and $ spent on p/
health for nothing as I've got no friends to go our with!! (And don't
like going out alone). I just sit at home, sleep all day sometimes as
that's the only time my brain switches of for being such a loser. I dont
watch TV, don't have the radio on, I just go on my pc like YouTube etc
and mind numb myself even more. Idk if I should try and myb start
working again however it's so soul draining on you as a person and tbh,
im on the disability pension now yet I seem to be just as broke as I was
when I was working so I find it a pointless goal to chase. I have
various substance use disorders now also as a result of my messed up
life & it's harder to interact with people re driving to places etc. I
just DONT know what I should do & in what order!?! Pls any advice would
be gold, Thankyou so much.