Hey everyone, I hope this finds you well.I just wanted to write to
SOMEONE because feeling depressed makes me feel as if I'm alone and
can't talk to the people around me. It's so weird because I feel like
I'm isolating myself, but I cant seem to help...
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Hey everyone, I hope this finds you well.I just wanted to write to
SOMEONE because feeling depressed makes me feel as if I'm alone and
can't talk to the people around me. It's so weird because I feel like
I'm isolating myself, but I cant seem to help it? Anyway, I just wanted
to write and complain - hope that's okay. I just wanted to write that
Ifeel brittle and broken and that I'm taking everything to heart. I had
a disagreement with a best friend of 8 years a week ago and I can't get
past it. It was something straight forward and if I was 'well', I would
have shrugged it off and marked it down to a miscommunication...but this
time, I keep going over and over and OVER it in my head and every time,
makes me feel worse and worse. Physically, I feel sick to my very
stomach. I don't understand it, but that disagreement has me crying all
day, not sleeping at night and yesterday - even contemplating suicide
because it hurt me that much. I honestly feel like I'm going crazy. I
tried to talk to a friend (someone who knows us both) to get a wise
opinion on it, but that friend just had a go at me and I took that to
heart, too. I feel even worse having sought out help. Am I going crazy?
I dont know how to get past this. I struggled getting out of bed this
morning because I was awake all night going over every negative word my
2 friends had said to me. I don't understand why it's affecting me so
much and along with depression, I have now developed a fear of hearing
anything else from friends that might hurt so I have stopped talking to
anyone. I can't live like this beyondblue's clinically-trained
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