Trying to be brave for my child for years now I’ve crashed

[Zap_Nell]

Hi

I’ve tried for so long to keep a healthy mindset

so long it’s turned into survival mode of self care

but now it’s habitués that when I do something like go to coles I have a panic attack

I feel like my body has given up or needs a rest

I go to bed so early because it’s easier than feeling anxious

ive Nursed my child back from a trauma/ injury that left her at 6 with ptsd and anxiety

I’ve been back and forth to children’s hospital and rocked back and forth with the panic attacks all while having my own and not showing it

i was on a tablet for 6 months but I ended up unwell and had to go off it .

so I’m on nothing now

I eat well , do yoga and meditate but I still feel in survival
as a escape I write and publish children’s books

my question is do tablets help this or shall I just keep trying everyday

I’m tired of trying to keep myself safe from panic and anxiety

my doc gave me a SSRI to try but reluctant and If it makes me tired I dont want to feel like a bad mum

I have 3 auto immune diseases and I ache all day aswell with chronic pain

just lost 😞 I try to do different things daily to feel better

any helpful advice please

[Petal22]

Hi Zap Nell,

Wellcome to our forums!

Im sorry you are feeling this way, I understand anxiety and depression can be difficult to deal with I understand.

Im sorry to hear what happened to your child….

I had severe anxiety OCD my doctor put me on a antidepressant to help me to manage my anxiety. I also did therapy… Ive now recovered…

I believe medication and therapy go hand in hand you can also learn some coping strategies.

I highly recommend you see your gp and let them know how you are feeling and how your anxiety and depression are affecting your life..

You could also do a mental health plan together this will enable you to see a psychologist.

[Zap_Nell]

Thank you

I agree

I’ve started meds

ive been keeping the depression at bay with strict routines but that’s not living

should be easier with medication and I won’t be in self care survival mode all day .
I think I knew all along because I have numerous referrals in the office

time to use it

booked councillor for Tuesday

Thankyou

[Petal22]

Hi Zap Nell,

Thats great that you are seeing your councillor on Tuesday and you’ve started meds…. Just remember it all takes time ❤️

Hang in there