Hey everyone,
I'm new to the forum, where do I start? I have social anxiety and depression and used to take medication for it, I no longer take SSRI as it was making me numb and made me put on so much weight. Now that I have come off it I am slowly beginning to lose some weight.
I recently started a new part time sales position 3 weeks ago and I really dislike it to the point where it makes me very anxious and sick. I have seen my psychiatrist about this and they have given me some helpful tips and guidance on how to try and manage my anxiety. I have a fiance of 9 years whom I live with and love dearly, I lost my father to cancer in 2014 and a year later I lost my father in law to cancer aswell. Last year was pretty awful and this year hasn't been all that great yet either, we are going away to America in August for a month though which should be good. My problem is that my fiance is not dealing with his grief well (I've suggested a grief Councillor but dont want to push him as he is not ready he says) he is always on the edge, has quit smoking so he is temper is high and I've tried telling him about this job but he doesn't want to hear a word of it. He says if I leave he will be very mad and it will put our relationship on the rocks, I understand where he is coming from because it's hard paying for all the bills and the reason why I had to get a 2nd job is because my main job has cut me down to 1 day a week. I was on newstart until I found this job and my anxiety was not triggered. This job is making me physically sick and mentally exhausted... I have been to the dr due to stomach problems and it turns out I have a case of IBS due to stress. I understand we need the money I'm scared I'm going to just lose it... he tells me to stick it out till the end of July and then I can hand in my resignation but then again hes frustrated at me and tells me I should just stick at it even after that, he says I'm selfish but I try to tell myself that is not him talking.
I just don't know what to do... he says he is happier now the money is coming in but I am feeling so trapped and lonely and miserable.
It's a hard job and I don't know how long I can put up with all this stress. 😞
